JuSt-In TiMe FoR eVeRyOnE! :)

All in a post...

2009-04-02T12:47:00.003+08:00

Yes! My off day today! Tmr is the day. IPPT! Ha. Better keep telling myself don't give up. Quite confident I can make it! Ha. Hope I can. But gotto wake up seriously early & I am gonna have a early rest today. Lot's of things revolving around my life. But I think one serious thing is that God is around and all you do revolves around Him and not the other way. That is it.

All right... Man Utd hasn't been on a winning streak. Cracks starting to show but they won the League Cup, didn't they? But well.. it's the least of the most coveted trophies up for grabs. Bounce back strong after the one week international break. So much to win but step by step. All the way!

Kinabalu. Wish I am there right now doing my fav pos show on my blog. How nice can that be! One more month to go. Wooo... The excitement. The atmostphere. The environment. The mountains. Yeah... A mountain not a hill. It's call Mt Kinabalu.

BBAQ on Sat. I pray that everything will turn out well. All to God and I hope that our Boys will indeed give their best and leave the rest to God.

Work. New plans and major resuffling for the organisation. I have to make a good decision but I thank God for putting me where I am now. Something that I have never thought was so impt to me. His plans is indeed higher than ours. Hope this new resuffling will be to my benefit. Changes. Yup.. But I can adjust to it if I choose to. And I hope it will be to my advantage.

Thank God for everything. So much. For He has been here. No God, no me. With God everything is possible. We're all champions. Difficult but with God? It isn't anymore. With God, we have hope and a future. Well.. Can't say all out in words. But the centre of our life should be Christ our King.

Malacca.. Nice place and it will be our destination for church camp. Hooray. To spend time together for a few days as a church to learn of God's word, to have fun, to relax & to recharge. So don't let any obstacles prevent you from going. Pray & I believe God will open and provide a way. Church camp... Soon!

I am back because...

2009-02-28T22:05:00.002+08:00

I am back to blogging because yahoo mail is down at this time!! Haha. Wanted to do Parade Order for BB and send it out. But can't send because I have difficulties accessing my yahoo mail. Maybe too many users. Or is it time that I should be changing to a new email acct? Haha. Oh yeah... My blog has change & I hope it is a better look for a great year! Anyway, it's my first blog of the year! Lol. I like the pic on the top of my blog. I think it speaks for itself! Fantastic! (I wanna do that pose when I am at Mt K!!) Haha.

All right... It has been a ups & down for the past few months. But who doesn't face that? I am really glad that God has been good & faithful. I want to learn to be faithful & listen to God. He really loves us & always here for us! I enjoy what I do everyday. Be it work, drum classes, mtgs, BB, cell grp, church! I thank God for simply joy like this. I thank God for giving me a stable job in times like this. I guess this is what we call providence. I am not earning like alot or what... But it's enough for me to survive, to give & bless, to be fill with joy & be satisfied with what I have.

I am thankful to God for a fantastic 62nd BB Company. With excellent Boys, Primers & Officers! I see such a change in some of the Boys. I am thankful for the new Year 1s. And I think it is really such a blessing from God. They're really a group of cute & funny Boys yet teachable. I thank God for how he has bless the company so much! I hope this year, we will be able to raise funds much more than last year for our BB Week. Yes... times are bad... But I believe it is God's economy, not men's. So to those who's going to recieve the leaflets/BB Week Cards, please donate generously!

I am thankful to God for a new cell group. The Boys are young but I see potential in each one of them. Potential to be a leader for God. They are just so full of energy! Sometimes, I think I can't keep up with them. Lol. I am thankful for my church YMM. For it is really a place called home! And I believe many others will agree to that! Haha. I have so much to thank God but I don't think I am gonna to blog it all for sharing. Gonna try yahoo mail again. Hope it works now!

God is great! He is fantastic!

Will you support Man Utd???

Man Utd --> League Cup Champs - I hope!!

The time of the night...

2008-12-07T01:26:00.002+08:00

Yup... at this time of the night... I am quite sure most of us can't think properly. I wonder if I can. But the silence out there and everywhere makes it a good time just to lay back on the chair and ponder about life. About everything. It's been a long time since I updated. Been busy. Updates another time when I am free. Anyway, it's a long weekend isn't it?

This mind just can't stop thinking. I am a bit shaken by all the thoughts running through my mind now. Amazing, funny, unexplainable. Maybe I can think proper when I wake up. Time to sleep.

Last day of Oct!!

2008-10-31T15:09:00.002+08:00

All right! Today is the last day of Oct. Yes... One month passes again just like that. Sometimes, I ask myself what have I achieve in this one month? Work, spiritual walk, personal life, church etc. Sometimes, I wonder if the life of a Singaporean is so busy... I wonder how is it like to be a owner of a house by the beach with a beautiful scenic view. Waking up as and when I like, sitting by the beach, having all that I need and doing all that I want without any disturbances. Well... I was close to that... Or maybe not really. Haha. At least I was away from Singapore for a short getaway to Bangkok.

It was fun, relax and I totally forgot all that I still need to do back home in Singapore. It was different because even before I left for Bangkok... I didn't really even think that I was going for a holiday. Nothing was done by me, booking of air tickets, hotel room, itinerary. Holiday just wasn't on the back of my mind. (Thks Simon & Evon for all the planning & research! Ha.) Ever since the re-structuring at my workplace, I have found myself busier than last time. Perhaps the things to be done remains the same but just that there is lesser manpower to achieve it.

But what can I say? I give thanks to God for EVERYTHING. And I mean EVERYTHING. God just knows, doesn't He? The trip to Bangkok has given me a good break away from home. Not having to think of work, things left undone, what's to be done etc. Lol. Now that I am back home, it's back to reality and Nov seems to be a busy month at work. Another audit coming up... Lots of preparation to be done and I hope weekends will not be burned!

For everything, I just give thanks to God for I believe He is able to help me and walk with me. At the end of the day, it's all back to how our relationship with God is. How's our relationship with God today? =)

Is He in the centre of your life or is He just part of your life?

All in a month...

2008-10-01T21:21:00.005+08:00

Woo... One month just passes like that... Ha. Work has been all right. Just that now we have lesser people, that means I got to burn more weekends. More duties. Now I am use to it. But weekends are still too precious to spend in camp. Haha. I still try to fight hard not to go back work during weekends. C'mon... Singaporeans are just too hardworking. Have some time to rest! Working 5days a week, waking up at 6plus in mrng before reaching home at 6plus in evening is long enough for a day. We shld have some life. Work doesn't surround everything around us!

Now that it's Oct, it means that Dec is coming, it means X'mas is coming soon! My aunt just told us maybe this year we might celebrate X'mas eve at my eldest aunt hse in hillview. It's a nice place... Although I have just been there once. I still rem last time when we were younger, we do spend the period during X'mas at my aunt's hse with my cousin. Ha. Ytd was my cell grp BBQ. The chalet was huge and so nice inside. I really dream & wish I can have a hse like this! Walk out and it's Pasir Ris park. How nice!!!

It was fun and we had lots of food. Thk God it only started to rain aft we were nearly done. Some of us stayed on to watch soccer. I drank coffee bought by Simon at 2am. It was like so nice!! But it sure didn't help. I slept for half and hr while the rest watch kung fu panda before the Man Utd match. I caught the first half of the match then when during half time, I thought I could snooze for 15mins... But I slept till I woke up at 7plus in the mrng!! Ha. Too tired after a long day. Just couldn't take it!

Off to WCP for picnic with my cousins and the young kids. The weather was excellent although it rain the whole night. But it was like so cooling. We ate sandwiches, fried bee hoon, fruits, tidbits, flew kites. Walk around. But I was really tired since I only slept for like a few hrs the night before. We had ice cream at Mac after that since Daily Scoop wasn't open. While driving home, I nearly doze off a few times, the head was like so heavy. I kept shaking my head to keep myself awake. Ha. Slept from 3plus till 7plus just now. Wonder how am I going to slp ltr on. Haha.

Yes... I also got my first pay for fetching dogs! Great. :)

Think I will go read now. Work tmr... Usual. But this week is a short week. Great. I feel I really sound like a person who likes to slack! Lol... God is gd too. I really enjoy spending time with Him each day although sometimes I feel too tired to wake up in the mrng to do my QT. I see prayers answered, prayers changing things, prayer changing lives. Who says there isn't a real God, I pray that more will know Him and see Him. And know He is the true living God.

I thank Him for the joy each day, the faith to believe, the strength to move on, the peace that fills my heart, knowing that my past sins are forgiven, His mercies are new each day, His grace so free, His sovereign hand that lead & guide me & the hope to persevere.

Faith requires hope & patience.

In a split of a second...

2008-09-04T00:22:00.003+08:00

A terrible & fatal accident happened just outside the back gate of my workplace today. Many accidents have happen there before but today's is the only one that has been fatal. I was going for b'fast when I saw an ambulance. And from what I know, the guy riding the motorbike lost too much blood and pass away in the afternoon at the hospital. It was trying to overtake the taxi that was making a right turn into my workplace. The bike flew and I suppose so did that rider. I saw the bike at the verge of the grass patch along the drains and I knew it was a terrible accident.

I don't know that guy but I am sadden and frighten. A lot of people make the right turn into my workplace. I am one of them. I have to admit I take it for granted that no one will cut into my turning radius because that is a right turn lane. However, it is only a small right turn slip road. Both directions are single lanes. I have countless times fail to check my right blind spot. I will just slow down and turn.

That young man was an ITE student and he was still on P plate. Sad that he lost his life just like that because he was travelling at a fast speed. Frighten that accident can be so fatal. I could have been the one to hit him but thank God I wasn't. I thank God for journey mercies everyday when I travel. I pray and I know that His angels are protecting me.

It makes me realise that sometimes tommorrow might just never come. Things never done or fulfil. Life is precious. Too much to lose it just like that.

One down... A few more to go?

2008-09-01T14:44:00.002+08:00

Yup... One down. Haha. Done with OH 08. Taken up the whole of my weekend. Tired at times but well. Here I am still back in one piece. Taking it slowly in my stride. Really thank God because He's my strength! So much things on my mind. I just can't stop thinking. Haha. And I am coughing. Every night. Becomes so bad when I sleep in my a/c room! Haha. I see that it is all about time management I suppose. U can't be doing everything at everywhere. U just have to say no in a polite way sometimes. But always be willing to help if needed.

Manage to go comex and get my RAM. Couldn't get the cheaper one but instead got one that was $5 more exp. Haha. And there was free coffee too. It tasted nice! Coffee. Nice! Things change things stay. There is no solution to everything. God didn't give any exact solutions or answers to problems? Did He? Haha. It's learning to walk this life of faith. A test of our faith in our relationship with God. Can we stand the test of faith?

It's fast... Sep already. 4 more months to end of year. I can't really believe it. But it is a fact and reality. Haha. Fantastic. The final lap towards a new beginning I hope. Unseen, unsure, uncertain. But I hope in my God who is steadfast and faithful.

Can we stand the test of faith?

Because He lives.

2008-08-25T00:47:00.000+08:00

Because He lives.

God Sent His Son, They Called Him Jesus;
He Came To Love, Heal And Forgive.
He Lived And Died To Buy My Pardon;
An Empty Grave Is There To Prove My Savior Lives.

Chorus:
Because He Lives
I Can Face Tomorrow
Because He Lives
All Fear Is Gone
Because I Know He Holds The Future
And Life Is Worth The Living
Just Because He Lives

How Sweet To Hold A Newborn Baby,
And Feel The Pride And Joy He Gives;
But Greater Still The Calm Assurance:
This Child Can Face Uncertain Day Because He Lives.

Chorus:
And Then One Day I'll Cross The River;
I'll Fight Life's Final War With Pain.
And Then, As Death Gives Way To Vict'ry,
I'll See The Lights Of Glory And I'll Know He Reigns

Success & Failure...

2008-08-18T01:37:00.004+08:00

Argh... Just tried out something not long ago. 80% success and 20% failure! Looks good now but I did something that is irreversible! I don't have the skills to do it. Looks like I need professional help. But I am happy that I did my own "hands on" and had that 80% of success. Performing good now. Not as bad as the other times. Wonder if it was worth it. But since there is 80% success and I gave it a try. I guess it was.

Somehow, my "dismantling instinct" for things is back. Just like when I was young, anything that lies on my hand will be in parts. Haha. But that is how I learn. But sometimes, lessons like this can be costly, because if you spoil one part, it will cost quite a lot to get it back to it's original condition! Enjoy dismantling things and fixed it all back. Seeing what it is made up of, what can be use to combine with other stuffs to create new things, just basic instinct that every boy or guy posseses I guess. The curiosity to find out. Like a detective. Haha. So fun!

Can't breathe properly now. Blocked nose. Since Wed, I have been down on and off with flu. Sore throat has recovered. Thank God. But I guess I got sore throat because I shouted too loud on Wed with my friends while playing soccer! We were having more fun fooling around like kids than playing soccer. Haha. My off day today. Gonna sleep soon and I hope I can wake up at like 9am. So at least I have my morning to afternoon to do a few things that I want and need to do.

Sometimes, not all things can be understood, but sometimes, not all things needs to be understand too. There is always a time for all things.

The focus must be on the moment before me, the present.

Jesus, All For Jesus

2008-08-12T22:27:00.001+08:00

Jesus, All For Jesus

Jesus, all for Jesus,
All I am and have and ever hope to be.
Jesus, all for Jesus,
All I am and have and ever hope to be.

All of my ambitions, hopes and plans
I surrender these into Your hands.
All of my ambitions, hopes and plans
I surrender these into Your hands.

For it's only in Your will that I am free,
For it's only in Your will that I am free,
Jesus, all for Jesus,
All I am and have and ever hope to be.

The last time... I hope...

2008-08-09T23:15:00.004+08:00

Finally... I can rest!! What a week. Weekday nights has mostly been occupied by commitments. But I found it tiring this week. Perhaps because work has been taxing and tiring too. Beijing Olympic Opening Ceremony was beautiful. The fireworks were so nice!! Especially the footprints fireworks. Spend my Fri night on duty. All I could do was to watch tv!! And today I had to go NDP. Last and final one. For 2008 and I hope... maybe for the the future to come.

Came home this morning, slept a while and woke up and realise I have got no lunch. Lol. But I ate some biscuits and ice milo! And off I go to Marina. Crowded. As I think back, I hasn't been watching NDP or spend my National Day doing what I want for the past 4years. Haha. Never ever thought that it might be enjoyable to watch from home rather than"live" from the place itself. But watching "live" has got it's benefits. The atmosphere is electrifying. Lots of cheers and fun. My wish is to be a spectator next year!! Yeah yeah yeah!!! Hopefully.

It seems August is going to be a busy month with quite a number of deadlines or things to be completed. But well... It means end of the year is drawing near! Haha. Know that I need God's strength and guidance. Looking forward to 2days of rest next week on Mon and Tues! Hooray! Time to sleep for now!

There's always a time to re-align and move forward!

Compassion...

2008-08-04T23:58:00.002+08:00

Compassion without action is sympathy.

Change is the only thing that is...

2008-08-02T22:18:00.002+08:00

Constant

Yup... Change is the only thing that is constant. Am I not right? Haha. Sometimes I wonder what's happening. No answers. I don't know why. But all I know is that there is always a reason for everything. Reasons reasons and reasons. It seems so normal. But is it a valid reason? I don't know. Something I can't explain or understand. But I guess it takes time to come to terms with changes as time goes by.

We faced it everyday ---> Changes.

Begin right!

2008-07-28T23:35:00.004+08:00

Surprised that even before I am out of job and still at least a few years left in contract and at least half a year left before I can be released prematurely, I am being offered a job. Yes... Surprised. But... the job is not something that is related to what I have studied or am doing now. Ya... Something alien to me but still part of engineering. Looks like I can't run away from the engineering world. Haha. At least it kinds of comfort me that the market is not as bad as it is. Globalization around the world. And even if I leave my current job, I no need to be afraid that I will be jobless.

Yes... I got a lot of lobang outside. But I am not sure if I would like to work for all these lobangs. Haha. All these aside, I am just glad that I can trust in God for all things. I wasn't really excited or happy but in my heart I was just thinking if I really took up this job offer in the time to come, would this be what God wants me to do? Honestly, I don't know. But I know He provides and I want to do what He wants me to do and not be too tempted by the offers.

Quietness at work today, not a lot of people back at work. Mostly all off because they went back to work in the weekends. But it was quite a enjoyable time for me, I enjoy the quietness. Do what I like to do, sit around and relax for a while then walk around then work again. No stress, no worries. Haha. Guess it's only for today. Unlikely to have such quietness for the week to come. It's so impt to begin the day right and I am glad I did. Nothing beats it then to begin the day praising God and committing to Him your ways ahead. =)

Begin right!

Wondering...

2008-07-26T21:47:00.006+08:00

Sometimes I wonder why do certain things turn out the way it is. I have got no answers or solutions. I wish I have them. Honestly. So many things I want an answer to. I see new challenges ahead of me. New future, new challenge, old problems. But we have to move onwards and forward. I am excited about new things to do. I just wish to see myself leave next year from my current work. I guess everyone just has enough of all that is happening inside.

Patience is the key. Just wait and be patient. But at the same time, keep giving your best. It's been a up down week. So much to say, so much to solve, so much to make up, so much to do. I just wonder what is next. I have got no answers, no direction to move where, no idea what to do. All I know is to commit, seek and pray.

It's just not me...

What will it be?

2008-07-19T23:53:00.004+08:00

I don't believe I am facing this right now. But it is happening. I got to make a decision. Unbelievable. I sort of decided a few weeks ago when it was being discuss. Anyway it's gonna be the last time so many of us can come together. But never during the few weeks have I felt that I should. There wasn't really peace in my heart when I gave my word for it. Haha. I have always stayed firm and sure. But it was different this time until I heard this:

"Enjoy yourself in a way that pleases God."

Yes... I heard this during the second day workshop at GO Forth. I am learning to be different and it does take courage to be one sometimes. But God is a faithful God. That's what I have been hearing day in and out for the past 3days. But we must be obedient. There is many ways we can do something. But how are we going to do it? Will it glorify Jesus? Does it reflect Christ-likeness in us? But this one liner is enough for me to make the right choice and a choice that glorifies God.

I have heard a lot and taken down notes but I think today's workshop impacts me the most. It's about "Obedience & Sacrifice: Family, Filial Piety & Missionary Call." It's something close to my heart and I can see that it is not just me but even many of the Asian participants who went for this workshop. Perhaps it has got something to do with our culture. Filial Piety - Simple to some but it does requires a certain amount of faith, patience, trust to see it coming through in different people's life. Especially if you link it with Family & Missionary Call. But not by your own strength or might but only if you obey and put your hope and focus on Jesus. Honestly, I can't share it all here and you all really got to hear it from the speakers themselves. As I left this conference, I feel that there is so much to be done but but but I can't do it all alone. It's God's work not mine.

God can use each and everyone of us in many ways. Are we willing to serve Him and live a life that speaks of Him everywhere we go? Anytime? Sometimes, time might not always be in our control. Much at times, we will procrastinate. "Let's leave this to tmr lah... Maybe some other time lah... So on and so forth..." Is time really on our hands? We look to our left and to our right and everywhere. Do we see lost souls that needs to hear the name of Jesus? To know this best friend of yours and mine? We'll not know when is Christ coming but we know we are all called to obey the Great Commission. To make disciples. Mark 13:32-37 & Matt 28:19-20.

We have to make that CHOICE today. For God not for self.

Just one...

2008-07-19T00:51:00.002+08:00

It's late and I want to sleep but I just had two pratas and I am too full to do that. I have been at GO Forth 2008 for two days and I have been truly blessed. Some things have taken a bit of time for me to digest and to really think and understand it. But every speaker was fantastic and hearing different of them with different backgrounds, lifestyle & experience share what they know, it all adds up to the already exciting and interesting topics or workshops. But I have to say this, not all workshops are interesting but I think it's not easy to organise such a big event like this.

I have heard so much and I know it's time for committment and prayer. A time to seek God and obey God. Sometimes, we go to conferences like this and we hear a lot of things, but God can just use one thing to touch your heart and that is it. One qns is enough to so called "keep" you thinking about making decisions, thinking about lots of things and so on... Maybe I like to think and evaluate. Haha. But well... God is good, He will affirm as time goes by. But it does not give a reason to sit on it. =)

So much that can be done. It's not where we are per se or what we do. It's how we live our lives. A life that reflects Christ-likeness, a life of total obedience, a life of comittment and following Christ. Some interesting things I pick up or have been shared by people:

"It's not the sitting capacity of a church but it's sending capacity."

"Go to places where you have not been to."

"Winning + Discipling = Mutiplying"

"World view --> Believe --> Values --> Behaviour"

Sometimes, it is difficult but God didn't say following after Him will be a bed of roses. It's all about trusting and loving God.

Nothing beats it!

2008-07-12T21:07:00.002+08:00

Yes... Nothing beats it than to have a cup of hot piping coffee in an air con room after a long day! So relaxing! Yes... Tired for the week. But it's weekend and time to rest and recharged. Thank God for the week and the many wonderful things He blessed me with. I had a test on Wed and I was late because TPE has a terrible jam. Couldn't believe it. I went out at 8am and reach only at 9.15am. Not the worse... Experience much worse than before. Stuck at TPE for a whole 2hrs. Test was at 9am and I seriously panic when I knew I couldn't make it in time. Prayed that the cars in front of me will move a bit faster. But well... I was at 1st gear most of the time. Lol. Reach the test room at 9.15am and guess what... the test had started. Haha... I thought I was finish. No other ways out. What alternative could there be when you're late for test?

Amazingly, I waited for my friends to come out and he told me that I could take my test at 4pm in the afternoon. Joining other people who are taking another subject. Wow! God is just amazing. Never thought this will happen. But God's ways and plans are higher. This also means I have a bit more time before 4pm to study. Haha! God is good. :) I feel so terribly warm everyday. Wish I can just stay in an air con environment all day long. Haha. I see every week passing so quickly. Sometimes, I just can't believe it. We must really make full use of each day. Everything we do to honour and obey God. Was listening to this worship song and the worship leader was sharing how he begins each day by reading the word of God, spending time praying and the day will just fall in place by itself. Not just literally "fall in place" but knowing that God is always in control of all situations at all times and He is present everywhere, anytime.

A good way is also to worship God! Yes... Worship anywhere, anytime, anyway you want it! Haha. That's the freedom of worship! =)

Carpe Diem - Sieze the day!

I Have A Destiny

2008-07-09T00:32:00.001+08:00

I have a destiny I know I shall fulfill
I have a destiny in that city on a hill.
I have a destiny and it's not an empty wish
For I know I was born for such a time as this.

Long before the ages You predestined me
To walk in all the works You have prepared for me
You've given me a part to play in history
To help prepare a bride for eternity.

I did not choose you but You have chosen me
And appointed me for bearing fruit abundantly
I know You will complete the work begun in me
By the power of Your Spirit working mightily.

So You Would Come

2008-07-06T21:20:00.002+08:00

Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

What will you choose today?

2008-07-01T22:09:00.003+08:00

"If you run, you will reach the finishing line."
"If you walk, you will also reach the finishing line."
"If you run, you might just MISS a lot of things."
"If you walk, you surely will SEE more things."

What will you choose today?

To Run or To Walk?

How you look at it!

2008-06-29T22:50:00.002+08:00

Another week gone! Just like that. So what have I achieve? Honestly, I don't know... It's been the same everyday. Everyday is filled with joy & thanksgiving. Honestly, I think I choose to have this attitude. Yup. I am reminded that we choose to have whatever kind of attitude or perspective towards things happening. It is impt how we view who God is. Had a six day work this week. Went back for work on Sat plus NDP in the evenings. I was really too tired by the time I reach home. I just wanted more sleep! (Didn't really had more sleep.) So glad I have recovered from my diarrhoea and I have pass it to quite a few people. Not my fault! It just teaches us not to share anything if we are not feeling well!! Haha. Hopefully, my stomach will get stronger after finishing the antibiotics.

I bought a new phone and it looks really gd! Haha.. That is how I feel. It was quite worthy too.. I got free 3 months subscription. God has really been good. He makes things happen at the right time. I am looking forward to the short getaway to Malaysia on one of the weekends in July. It's a big family group. But I think it's going to be more fun than a hassle. Haha. This has never happen before and I really thank God for making it happen! There has never been such time like this! Lol.

I see changes happening everyday. But that is the way things are. But God never changes. I really see God's faithfulness in my life. And also so much blessings and goodness. I think sometimes we need to change our way or perpective we look at things happening and also the way we view God. I think I have learn to be contented and just take things that comes in my stride. That is how I am joyful in God because I know all things are in His hands!

What's your perspective of God today?

2008-06-22T22:53:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah... the weekend has passed... Again!! Haha... But it was good to be back in church. It really feels home! Today's sermon was fantastic. Yes... Just give your all to God, we are there to meet Him! Every Sunday! It's between you and God. It was a rainy morning, but became cloudy in the afternoon and it was the best weather to play soccer! Miss soccer so much. We had so much fun but near to the end... Haha. My legs gave way. Felt that it will cramp anytime. Well... Just stand there and wait for ball to come.

I have been back for less than a week. But personally, I felt I have gone through a lot within this short span of time, However, I thank God that He has always been faithful. I see Him blessing me in my life in ways that I never expected, teaching me in ways that I have never known. Assuring me, encouraging me in times when I needed. Answering my many many "Whys" when I wanted to know. (In His ways, not mine) Well... I have an awesome God don't I? I am happy to be blessed with new things! Sign on max-online express for 2years contract during promo period and they gave a free HP 2133! Hopefully, it is good then I can saved some space in my room and replace my desktop! Amazingly, it has been with me since I sign on!! In 2003!!

Yes... 5years. It's been long. I can't wait for next year to come. Although I still don't know what next year holds for me... But yes... 2009 just needs to come. It's nice waiting patiently sometimes. Because God can be very humorous along the times when He leads and guides us. :) It all depends on how you take it? Lol.

It's good, it's great! I am off on Mon, Tues. Still in some kind of slow moving mood. Not lazy but just slow moving and taking things slowly. Haha. And right now I am being bothered by people. 2 boring people. Lol

Love & Compassion - Lord, teach me.

What I took home...

2008-06-18T00:49:00.002+08:00

It's been one over week since I had to work. But during the one over week, I wasn't slacking at all. It seems different everytime and everytime, God speaks. Right to the heart. All that I see, heard and experience, I will always remember. But it's not enough just to remember at times, we got to live differently, live a life worthy for God. I need time to reflect and to really re-enter back home. Took another two days of leave, I needed that rest and time to settle down. Thank God, I had no problems getting my leave approve.

Got a piece of shocking news when I came back home. Just made me struggle to know how impt it is to know God. It's precious. To know that God die just to save us, because He LOVES us. It happened while I was away and it has already pass. My mind is still filled with many WHYs and I know only God can answer my WHYs in His time.

I know God was speaking to my heart throughout the trip. I wanted that and I expected that. God was good, so good. I had my fears, thoughts of WHYs, reluctances, joys, brokeness, hopelessness, amazed, awe, assured, loved. I went through all of these and God work through all of these. He spoke, He helped, He opened my eyes to see, ears to hear and a broken heart. I also learned one thing. We can feel hopeless but in God, we can always hope because He is a God of Hope therefore we know that we need not feel hopeless.

God answer my prayers, gave me a strong body although I had diarrhoea (Hasn't LS for like 6-7times in a day), help me to overcome fears, connected with me, empowering me, teaching me and helping me to be able to feel a bit of the Father's heart for the people. His beloved. That was all that I ask for and it was answered. I remember praying to God after a prayer walk, telling Him about what I seen, heard and feel. And God just asked:

"Why kind of life would you choose to live for me?"

I was honestly stunned for a moment, took time to digest and told God, "I would, I will and I want."

I am back, back into reality again. It was really nice to be back home. Had my first meal of Chinese food. Enjoyed and loved it. Loved my a/c in my room. Took a long bath. Enjoy the water that is clean enough to be drink right out of the tap. Technology that is available readily anytime, anywhere back home. I am contented and comfortable. But is this the life that I am contented with? The type of life I want to live for God? =)

Matt 6:33

God is always willing, are we willing?

Random thoughts...

2008-06-06T22:52:00.005+08:00

I will be away for mission trip! Excited! But also worried for a few things. But I guess it's all just unnecessary worries. I'll rem God's promises for me. It just seem to happen so quickly. Few months of prayer and preparation. And tmr we will be leaving for Nepal. I still don't understand why time passes so quickly everyday. Hope it will be slower. It's already June. By the time I am back it will be near to end of June and towards a new month. Well... Sth that I keep thinking abt. Lol.

Really thank God for everything. He been amazing throughout all things. Leading and guiding us through trainings. Showing us, opening up doors, blessing people. Amazing. He's not just God. He's our Father. An interesting and true thing that I read. A lot of times, we just take God for granted. We thank Him when all things turn out well and smooth. But when something happens, we start shouting and complaining instead of trusting Him and appreciating all He has done for us. But that is us sometimes, isn't it?

I pray the Lord will teach me to give thanks and to trust Him in all things. Sth simple to understand, but I would say yet profound. And difficult to carry out BUT can be done. Just thoughts running thru my mind. I think the impt thing is to stay close to God. Other than knowing Him as God, we need to know He is our ABBA FATHER. And we are His beloved. Yes... His beloved.

So are we giving ourselves to Him totally? Or are we holding back part of us? What's the choice you will make?

2008-06-01T21:30:00.002+08:00

It has been a busy week. Had my off day on Thurs but was busy shopping for stuffs. Had to travel to many different places to buy, collect or check out the stuffs. Fun but at the end of day, it was really tired. I watch Indiana Jones on Fri! Nice show. Worth watching. Had duty on Sat. Boring day but nevertheless, there was still things to be done. And I slept at 1plus before waking up at 5plus. That's my life for duty nowadays. Ironic. I still have work not done yet! Hope to clear them off before I go off to Nepal. Don't want to pile up all my work.

One more week and I am off to Nepal. Excited to go and also to meet the people. But I have lots of things undone. I need to prepare myself to do what I have not done before. But everyone has their first time trying new things so it's nothing big. I have a Big God who will help me. I need His wisdom and guidance. It's more about praying and allowing Him to lead me. I just don't want to do things my way! :)

He has been good. Always. I have been busy recently that I didn't really spend time with God. I thank God for always being here although I neglected Him sometimes. It's a timely reminder for me to know that even in the midst of busyness, we have to honour God and He wants our time. We are His caretakers, stewards. Of everything. Because everything belongs to God. Lord, teach me, as I follow after you.

I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
John 14:6

So Cool!!

2008-05-25T05:35:00.003+08:00

Haha. I had a dream yesterday about riding a bike! So cool! Lol. Think I have been thinking of it for quite some time. But riding a bike is quite dangerous. For those to know I have a bike license ok? But guess it's too dangerous that I won't be giving it a try this year. Perhaps next year... Sticking to driving a car for 2008. Haha.

Yes... It's super early now and all I can think of is bicycles. I woke up so early. Can't fall asleep then.. It was tiring on Sat but we had fun unloading all the bicycles. Think we will have a harder time loading back all the bicycles today. Tiring. Ha. But I thk God for gd weather yesterday. It wasn't really that hot. I pray that today will be the same! :)

Doubles!

2008-05-22T06:30:00.002+08:00

Man Utd are European Champions! They have done it! They have won the doubles! Fantastic. Elated.

EPL Champions
European Champions

Doubles!

Excitement & all that's been happening...

2008-05-20T12:52:00.003+08:00

I am excited. But am reminded that excitement doesn't last. It's good to be excited but we need to move beyond that. If there are no actions to carry that excitement to others, that excitement might just "die" off.

The past one week had been wonderful. Time just seems to pass so quickly without me knowing. And today is already Tues afternoon. Haha. The weekend footprints retreat was an excellent time of bonding, relaxing in God's presence and lots of learning and sharing. Not forgetting hearing from God Himself. Many were refreshed, including me. God spoke to many individuals and gave promises to many. I am thankful to God for affirming certain things He has been working in my life. Shouldn't be doubting anymore. Haha.

Back to reality once again... But I am still filled with God' s blessings. So much joy. Ha. But I still have many things to read and work on. Need to be focus and prepared myself for the trip to Nepal. Looking forward to going back to Nepal. Before that, I have to go back to work this weekend! Argh.. all my colleagues dread that. It happens every year. Yeah.. National Runway Cycling. Haha.. What's so fun about cycling on the runway? Beats me. Lol.

As usual.. Weather has been warm. And I just prefer to hide in my room. Not turning on the a/c the whole day.. but at least with the fan on, it's cooler than going out. I have to say again that God has been so faithful and good. It's so impt to read His word and learn so that we will grow. Holy Spirit is our teacher & guide. =)

Champs League Final - 21st May!

God's Promise - Psalms 23:3

Just something...

2008-05-12T23:29:00.004+08:00

It's amazing how God speaks to people the same message. I was at GDOP yesterday and throughout these few months, God has been telling me through His words and in many different ways about loving Him. And He spoke the same msg to one of the pastors yesterday. How it hit deep into my heart. I knew it was God speaking. Such a personal msg to me. :) I'm beginning to like this journey. It is tough at times but with God, He sometimes can be quite humorous and so loving. It's about a relationship with God. That is so impt. We see Him differently in different stages of our Christian walk.

2 things worth pondering over:

1. Gd intentions @ correct timing?

2. Priority - What's your priority?

Yup... God is great and I give Him many thanks for all things!

Man Utd are EPL Champs!
One down One to go!

Euro Champs!

What's the will of God for me?

2008-05-06T22:34:00.005+08:00

This qns kept me thinking for a while this evening. Yup... What's the will of God for me? Hmm... Seriously, I didn't have an answer but I thought of many things. Haha. I think the most impt is to know that God is always in the center of our lives and He needs to be. So no matter what may happen, at least we hold on strong to our faith. I thank God for a recent conversation with one of my friend. He was sharing with me how difficult it was to work outside. He has got 3 kids with the 4th one coming. Really salute him. Haha. Anyway, after talking to him, I began to have a rough picture of how tough it can be working in the private sector. The time will come when I no longer hold a job that guarantees me a salary that comes on the 10th every month.

I got to be a warrior, a fighter. Not by my own means or strength. By knowing that God is with me. Yeah... I was a bit scared, worried. But knowing that I have a great God, what's there to fear? Haha. Serious. People put their security or hope in jobs, money, comfort etc. I put my trust in God, He is everlasting and unchangeable. He loves us the same, in regardless of what, He won't love us more or less. :) That's my God!

So that goes the worries. I just need to cast my cares upon God and all I need to do is to ask my Father, "Dad, what is it that you want me to do?" Yes... I yearn to hear from Him and I want to hear from God. =)

What prevents us from hearing God?

Hibernation Mode?

2008-05-04T20:11:00.004+08:00

It's how fast time passes. It's another new month. Month of May. I am thankful to God for April. His goodness is just so sweet and His love so tender. So much things to plan and done for this month. Other than church stuffs, I know work for this month is going to be hectic. I wish I could go for Hillsongs concert and family day. But that weekend is National Runway Cycling. So it seems I have to pray for things to change and happen! Other than that, there is another re-audit, so I believe all will press the scramble button again.

But the key is to pray and listen to God. I will do all that I can and I believe God will do the rest. And He will bless me with so much more! Prayer has the Power to move and change things! Just need to be in God's presence and allow Him to re-charge me. Lol. Feeling tired and keep falling into hibernation mode. Having a quiet room plus a/c is great. I enjoy reading my bible and book! But it is also easy for me to want to sleep. Haha. Weather has been super warm this two weeks. I would love to hide in an a/c place everyday!

And I went to wash my car at a car wash just now! Too lazy to wash. My heart says wash it yourself, but my actions says just pay the money and let someone else do it! Anw, the car-washers need to earn a living! Haha. It was cool for me just to sit inside alone and listen to the music. The whole wash took less than 20mins. But I guess the whole process took me 45mins? It was simply just quiet and cool. I paid $6. Worth it. It's cleaner now. And yup... because of my hibernation mode, I knock my car this mrng when parking. Didn't pain my heart because of the knock but I was a bit angry and kept asking myself why I allowed that to happen!

Haha... the buzzer sounded but I didn't press the brake. Don't know why. Anw, it's over. Just a slight knock. It's ok. Lol. I am fine too. Think that was so impt. I have always been kept safe by God while driving and I thank Him for that!

Ezekiel 47:1-6 - How deep are you WILLING to enter?

It's just the start..

2008-04-29T22:05:00.008+08:00

I am super tired for these two days. Been sleeping like only 6hrs. Waking up at 6am everyday. Argh!! Work has been stress. No time to play around. Tensions are high. Rumours of being recall back to work on Labour Day. But I told my friends that it's not possible and the likelihood of happening is less than 10%. Why? Cuz it is Labour Day. And we are all labourers. Haha. But in the midst of all things, I have an unchanging God who's still so good always. Rite? Who can denied that? =)

Slept before I went for my drum lessons today. I was nearly late. Too tired. Didn't even bother to bathe when I came home. Just laid on the floor in my room and zzz. Haha. Didn't want to dirty my bed. But.. I did bathe before I went to drum class. Super hot weather but thank God I have an a/c room. And the church office is a/c too. It was great today. We learn a bit more new things. I need to practise at home by playing "Air Drums" Haha. That's what the teacher say. Just imagine you have a drum set with u and practise. That's what I have been doing. :)

Most impt thing is.. Man Utd is gonna win tonight! Yeah. I am gonna sleep now although I feel more energetic than when I came home just now. But I need the rest cuz I am watching the match and I still have to work. But tmr is sports day so I will be playing soccer with my colleagues in the afternoon at Tampines SAFRA's artificial pitch. A form of exercise & de-stress! Thurs is an holiday! So finally can sleep late! Love it! And yeah.. God is good, I have been learning from many of the biblical characters in the old testament about living a life that is in obedience to God. What we should look out for, how we should live in obedience. Nothing is more impt than the word of God and the Holy Spirit. =)

I am hungry. Didn't eat dinner again. Losing weight?

MAN UTD WILL WIN TONIGHT!!!

It's just a start... And we play a part in determining the ending.
So what will our decisions or reactions be when we face challenges?
Start well, end well.

Gentle yet Powerful

2008-04-27T15:38:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, a reminder just needs to come gently. We have a gentle God. A God who loves and cares. Yeah... I am just so thankful to God for His promises and ways He speaks to people and how He affirms. It is because when two person comes together for a mtg and you have no directions, not knowing what to discuss, pauses in btw, thinking hard about what to do or plan. Write down our ideas. Finally, you decide to pray and wait upon God. A moment of individual prayer and telling God all my concerns, worries and He suddenly speaks so gently to me. We look at each other and begin to share what God tells us. Yeah... and it was the same things God spoke to us about.

1. We need to seek God more.
2. To trust upon Him for all things.
3. Summary, it is just all about Him.

Yes, Our God, the Almighty One. Not my strength or abilities. So what if I can do something so well? But if God is not with us, what's the point? Saul & David - Great kings & rulers. Only when God's anointing and blessing was with them. But when they begin to sin against God and when God's presence left them, they could accomplish nothing. No more victories in battles or their lives. It was the same for many of the people in the old testament who didn't follow God. It was also the same for the Israelites. Such a precious lesson to be learn. Yeah... a gentle yet powerful reminder.

Putting Him first in all things. Taking up the cross daily. Not when or where I feel like to. But it is now! So amazing. God never fails to do amazing things in our lives.

A Disciple of God - Luke 9:23

It's JUST me..

2008-04-27T00:31:00.002+08:00

Today's Youth Service was wonderful. We were in church office. A bit small.. but enough to hold all of us. Many came late.. Haha. But thank God they came because I believe the message spoke to many, including me. Worship was fantastic. And most importantly, God was with us! Supper after that and we rush down or perhaps I rush down to the coffeeshop to catch the Man Utd vs Chelsea match. I was really sad Man Utd lost. Yup.. but pls understand, it's two different things between Man Utd and God. Haha.. because everyone kept encouraging me not to be sad. I am sad for Man Utd because I am afraid they will lose the title and get kick out of the Champions League. But my God still doesn't change because He is still a great God!

Hope that Man Utd will win this coming Wed. Supporting them all the way. I want them to win the double! Yup... and I am normal. I am a big fan of Man Utd. Since P5. All the way Man U! Saw an accident that already happen when I was on my way home. Van overturn, front of the car was smashed. A reminder for me to drive safely. Been a bit reckless recently, or perhaps impatient. Must remind myself.

I thank God for keeping me safe whenever I drive. He's my protector. :)

Man U - League & Euro Champions!

My day of blessings

2008-04-24T21:59:00.003+08:00

Great. Man Utd drew at Nou Camp. Hope they will score at Old Trafford and not concede any goals. I went to watch the match this mrng. Not a fantastic match overall, but my fav team did well! Yeah. Came home to sleep for a few hrs but only finally manage to sleep at 6plus and I woke up at 8am to prepare to go to Singapore Poly for my two day course. Felt so much wanting to sleep. Really really tired. But the course is interesting, however, not the people! I was the youngest among the 20 people. Yes... first time. And they are all over 30s. Lol. Wonder how I ended up there!

All these old uncles are really interesting. The uncles in my grp debated over something for like 15mins and I just sat there. LOST. Lol. And it wasn't just once but a few times. Think the lecturer also know and he somehow made fun of them during one of the grp presentation. Guess he must have pity me as I sat right in front of him. Lol. It was the funniest ever. If I got a camera phone, I surely record it down. This course is good. Go for it. Risk Management by SISO. But quite exp. Haha. Came back and slept for 3hrs till 8pm. Couldn't take it. Too tired. Lol.

I made a decision quite quickly when the call came. Didn't think much but I just agreed to help.

Anyway, God is really good and faithful. Always. I am thankful to Him for everyday. For a course I enjoy and I didn't even fall asleep once when I was so tired. I am thankful to Him for all things big and small in my life. =) For a decision I just made and had second thoughts but I know God will honour and bless me. PTL. :)

And I am hungry!!! I didn't had dinner! * Stomach rumbling!*

And...

2008-04-22T22:05:00.002+08:00

Wonderful... I am off tmr! Yeah! Haha. Officially, I am only back for work for one day this week. That is today. Lol. I was on duty off on Mon, off tmr then come Thurs & Fri, I am on course at Singapore Poly! Guess this is my shortest week ever w/o taking leave. Haha. Man Utd match on Thurs mrng! Can't wait. Gonna watch the Liverpool vs Chelsea match tonight. I support neither. Just watching for the purpose because I enjoy soccer. Anyway, I got colleagues to accompany me. Lol.

Hungry now. Eat a bit here and there. No time for dinner. Had my drum class today. Hmm... Just feel like typing. Helps me to forget about things! Haha. Drum class was difficult. Gosh.. Couldn't co-ordinate and follow the counting. Need more practice at home and keep counting and counting until I can follow the drum beats. Nevertheless, it was fun. Think although I might be learning slow.. Really slow I feel. Haha. But it's my first time learning a musical instrument. Nth is easy and I just need to persevere. I gave my best!

I am pretty sure I just need more practice. And tell my hands and legs to listen. Lol. Love my a/c in the room. It feels so warm and humid.. much more I ran 2.4km today. So I keep perspiring. Need to bathe again. All rite.. I am done with the typing. Gonna do some other things. Practice and dream of drums. Haha.

And... God is good!!! All the time!!! And all the time!!! God is good!!!

V.C.D

2008-04-19T00:07:00.002+08:00

It was a very good cell mtg. Small grp. Not the usual big grp. We had 8 today. On days when all are present, we will have 10 over pple! Haha. But I thank God because I think in a small grp, it's more fruitful. We were going slow and had lot's of time for sharing and discussion. I enjoy it! And Stanley shared this interesting V.C.D

1. V - Vulnerable
2. C - Contagious
3. D - Decision.

Yup... We learn about the river of God. =) Cell refreshment was good too. Haha.. I like the cake, the butter cake was so spongy and soft. Yummy. Wish I can have it for b'fast tmr. Haha. But I have to wake up early as usual! I am on duty. Boredom... Gonna spend the whole Sat doing nth. Because no one is working! Which also means freedom. Lol.

God is good, really good. When His grace and goodness is upon you, you can't stop but dwell in His presence. God's presence is with us everyday, not just on Sun during worship service. He's with us every moment. I am a Christian everyday, not only on Sun! :)

The first...

2008-04-15T22:11:00.002+08:00

I had my first drum class!! Haha. It was fun and interesting. Learning new things. A bit difficult but it's challenging. Gotto listen to the drum beats, body movement. Tempo and all the other things. But I went thru it! Lol. Wish it was longer.. but I was also getting tired then. It's all about the rhythm. Felt scared and not confident. But I guess it's the same for everyone who go thru their first. It was the same when I went thru my first motorbike class many years ago. I also learn how to set up the drums. A bit like noob.. but it's all part of the learning. Looking forward to my next class! But first I need to listen to more songs. That's the homework. Lol.

Getting tired now. Woke up early today at 5plus. Guess it's because I slept quite a lot yesterday when i was off. Need to pray and read my bible. I am really thankful to God for everything! He's so good!! So good! =)

Victorious!

2008-04-14T01:49:00.002+08:00

Yes.. Man Utd won! I am so delighted. Yeah... They didn't really played well.. But a win is a win! Hargreaves free kick was really fantastic. He's really my favorite player. I am beginning to admire him more and more for his talents! He is worthy of a first eleven every time.

I had good food at Jerry's. Still feeling quite full now. Had ice cream at ICE3 too. Been eating non stop. I need to work out. If not I seriously am getting fat. Haha. God is good. I am excited and happy. Sometimes when we think of the future, we worry and think what's going to happen. But now when I think of the future, I am excited about what God has prepared for me. Lol. Great. He's an awesome God.

Everything is about Him. Life is more than emotions, security, possessions, etc. God is our everything. So make full use of time and don't let it run away! Balance and seek God first. He is the most impt! Matt 6:33. =)

My GREAT God

2008-04-13T17:05:00.002+08:00

Lol. I rejected my part time admissions into NTU. Yup... took me a while to click on the mouse. But I have to do it before the 15th April. So I think I better do it now rather than wait till the last min. Some might ask why since it is not easy to get in. And ya... I spend $65 for that application. Yes... I could use that money to eat and treat pple. But I think it is much more than that. Through it all, I went on a short journey with God, to learn to trust, believe & walk by faith. It was all worth it.

Learning to wait upon God was the key. To learn to hear from Him and allow Him to direct my every step isn't easy. But it was impt and so precious to me to allow myself to be in His presence and seek Him. He wants obedience. Who knows what God has for me next? Never doubt because I have a great God! I am gonna keep the application letter. Can't bear to throw it down the bin.

It was great to be able to learn about Prayer & Fasting from Bro Francis Khoo on Sat afternoon. It was a wonderful time of learning. Now is the time for application. To allow the word of God to come alive. I learn so much but I must go read back my notes about what I learn. I am gonna get the audio CD. For those who miss... I seriously encourage to get the audio CD when it's out! Don't miss it!

I am learning drums next week! Haha. Great. I am excited. Hope I can co-ordinate my legs and hands. Haha. Looking forward to it! And yes... Man Utd vs Arsenal tonight. It's clear cut who's gonna come out victorious. Lol. I need not say more. =)

I am thankful to God. For all things. Keep looking to Him and He will show us great things. So great that we can ever imagine. Oh.. Did I just repeat it again? But I can't help it. My God is a GREAT GOD! More than you can ever imagine!

God wants a heart that follows after Him.

Convictions & Loving God

2008-04-06T16:06:00.006+08:00

I thank God for the AQ Boys who did well to finish the race on Sat. It was fun being out the whole days cheering for the Boys. It was very very hot at noon. It was tiring waking up early and driving around but it was worthwhile. Worthwhile because I see a sense of bonding, heartbeat and desire.

I had a conversation with one of my church friend. We were talking a bit about convictions and I found it really interesting. I have thought of this before but never gave a deep thought about it. I have a lot of time want things done my ways because of what I believe in. Because I am convicted by it. But what one is convicted of is not what the other might be convicted of. There needs to be understanding at the end of it. A time to give and take. A time to listen and accept. A time to to allow God to change things around. A time for yourself to let God change you. He wants us, out heart.

He doesn't want what we can do for Him, our abilities but He wants our heart. He longs to communicate with us. A lot of times, we might thought that by doing these and that, it would be enough. But that isn't the case. God is God. He can do anything. He loves us and desires us to do the same. Loving Him with all our heart, mind, soul and strength.

I thank God I see light at the end of the tunnel. After a long journey, I understand why I have to go through changes. Changes helps one to grow. Making a decision makes me rely on God. Yes... Indeed I can plan what I want but it is God who determine my every step.

Plan:Path - Direct:Steps

2008-04-03T22:11:00.004+08:00

It's open. I opened the letter and I know the result.
I prayed, read the bible. This verse came to mind. Proverbs 16:9.
"A man's heart plan his path, but the Lord directs his steps. "
I didn't do my Q.T this morning.
So I flipped to today's Q.T material from daily bread. Key Verse - Proverbs 16:9.
Can't be that timely can it?
God is amazing.
How awesome can He be?
What's next?

Fight of Faith.

2008-04-03T19:02:00.003+08:00

Here I am at your feet crying out to You

Draw me near, hold me close

Lord I wait on You

For You are my greatest Love

You are my Comforter and Strength

You are the First, You are the Last

You are my guiding Light

I will run, I will soar

On eagles' wings

As I wait on you Lord

My strength is restored

Fixed my eyes on You Jesus

As I run this race

Help me fight this fight of faith

Open or not?

2008-04-03T18:34:00.002+08:00

It's Thurs and one more day to the end of the week. It has been a tremendous four days for me. Not everything has been good but if I have God, I choose to be happy and satisfied with Him and what is around me. Because He is my joy. There is changes at work and it is always changing. Haha. People always says this - Nothing is constant except change. Lol. There is re-shuffling and I am not longer in the same team as my good friend. I can't do what I like. Think I have to do more admin than technical stuffs. Looking forward to see what's going to happen.

The letter is on my table. I received it today. I dare not open it. I would love to know the result but I am fearful. This letter will somehow determine the next step I take. I have been praying and it seems clearer to me about what's going to happen for the next one year from now. I just need to be patient and stay close to God and not sway away. Can't describe how I feel now.

Should I open the letter and know the result?

It's amazing!

2008-03-30T00:54:00.002+08:00

It's amazing when God uses someone to minister to people. I enjoy today's Youth Service. Dr Maurice Sklar was great. He could played the violin so well! Healing came to people who believe with FAITH that God could heal. Both on the inside and outside.

Ecc 3:1-8 - Yup.. there is always a season for all things. It seems to be more and more real to me that a season passes and another season comes. I am beginning to understand certain things that God is saying to me and it is beginning to slowly take place in my heart and mind. He's faithful and He will always be. Forever. It's impt to know who our God is. A gracious God. But God is one who will also be angry with us yet loves us so much.

It's difficult sometimes when you are put into a situation or environment you are not used to. Either you run away from it or you faced up to it. We can either changed ourselves or allow ourselves to camouflage quietly and silently in the environment without knowing anything. Haha. So what will you choose?

It's difficult to choose and make a decision. Sometimes, wouldn't it be better that we are left with only one choice? Random thoughts. April is coming! It's gonna be an exciting month for me. I hope and pray I can get through the month. Lol. I thank God for March because He has been good to me! Thank God for all the blessings. It's been a abundant month for me! Haha.

Oh yeah.. Sometimes we can also choose to be satisfied or not with what we have. Although sometimes I feel that it's unfair when I start comparing, I stop it. I am thankful for what I got. It's what God has allocated for me. Others might get more but I choose to be happy and satisfied with what I have. Moreover, I have a GREAT God!

Sports

2008-03-23T19:44:00.002+08:00

I thank God for sports. Especially soccer. It helps to build relationships and friendships. It helps to relieve all the stress and tiredness.. frustration too. Haha. Well.. at least it helps me to forget about most things and it really helps to refresh me a bit although my body is like very"nuan" now. Haha. I would say I enjoy most sports type of games except water ones.. cuz I can't swim.. But I love to canoe or kayak. Lol. I thank God that I can play most common sports type of games. I would love to play badminton, basketball one of these days!

Man Utd playing Liverpool in a while's time! I hope Man Utd can win so that the lead will be maintain! Back to work tmr.. I pray for a change and a new perspective of looking and handling things. A challenge for me. MAN UTD!!!

Above all else, guard your heart. God looks at our heart for it's the most important.

Anointing

2008-03-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

Last few days was tiring. Both mentally and physically. Work has taken a drastic turn of events. Non of my colleagues would have expected things to turn out to be the way it was. But it has accumulated over the years and Thurs was the day when all exploded and significant events took place. I reflected and realized I was affected in a way and another. Guess it's the friendships that I have made over the years that left me with a tinge of regret yet a sense joy because finally there a resolve between issues but will it be for the future or will it be a short term solution? I don't know honestly. It's a battle and a challenge.

Revolt? --> 1. A rising up against the government; rebellion; insurrection
2. Any refusal to submit to or accept authority, custom, etc.
3. The state of a person or persons revolting.

NO! IT IS NOT!

I am tired from driving. I wish for someone to drive me instead.

I was on my way driving to Yishun to exchange for the church van because I needed it on Sat for BBAQ Hike Simulation. I was listening to songs by Delirious. I had heard these songs many times since I always play the CD in my car. When the song history makers was playing, I was listening to what the worship leader was saying and it dawn upon me certain things. One very impt thing was about anointing. We all need the anointing from God. I rem reading a book called "The Anointing" a few years ago by R.T Kendall. I really enjoy reading the book. It talks about the past, present and future anointing. Different persons from the bible was used as examples.

It was on my mind that we can or want to do many things in life. Anything that looks good, glamorous, exciting, meaningful etc. But if it was without God's anointing, would it have been different? Would it be a success or failure? =)

THE ANOINTING - Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow.

Listening, Learning, Obeying.

2008-03-16T22:45:00.002+08:00

Deut 5:1 - Three things essential to a growing relationship with God.

1. Listening - Absorbing and accepting information about God.

2. Learning - Understanding its meaning and implications.

3. Obeying - Putting into action all we have learned and understood.

"Sometimes it is not the distance that stands between us and the Promised Land, it is the condition of our hearts."

My thoughts...

2008-03-15T00:31:00.011+08:00

No matter what.. the earth still goes on revolving everyday. Jesus is by your side everyday. I truly thank God for saving me. I wonder where will I be now and what will my life be like if I did not know this BEST friend. Hmm... Fears are to be conquered by you and not you conquered by them. It says in proverbs that the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.

Time flies and younger men gets enlisted into army. Four & half years ago. I had the same journey. Botak head. Becoming a boy to man. Different trainings during my 4mths in Tekong. I miss home back then. I would look out of the window towards the sea and think of family. I would always treasure the walk with my mum when she accompanies me to take a bus on my journey back to booking in. At that point of time, I never thought I would be missing home so much. Everything and anything at home.

Now that many guys around me are enlisting into army, it seems I have taken a long journey. One that was filled with tears and joy. I am still in that journey now. Tears and joy that only God will know because He was the one that was my sustainer, my strength. He is a God of hope, determination & peace.

29th April 2009 - The date that I am looking forward to.

I believe that this will be a new journey I will be taking.

To all the guys out there who are waiting to be enlisted or have been enlisted: Trust God. Look to Him always because He will bring you through! Psalms 91!

Joshua 1:9

2008-03-15T00:13:00.002+08:00

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."

Joshua 1:9

What are the fears in life? Are we most fearful of letting others know ourself?

Gone in a breeze...

2008-03-09T20:06:00.004+08:00

Weekend - Gone in a breeze. 1st nite - Just 3hrs or less of sleep. Thks to some of u who made weird noises and who woke up at weird timings. (To get slippers???) 2nd nite - 6hrs of sleep in teacher's room. Cooling, solid tiled floor without a/c. I thank God for the camp and enrolment service today. It was great. The people were great. All YMMers were so generous with their contributions or donations to the BB. I gave out a few leaflets to adults who so readily agreed to donate. Thks! Young Boys who were in Sec One came running up to me with excitement and shown me their BB Week Cards with all the donations they had collected. And it was hot wearing the coat. I guess I wasn't the only one feeling the heat.

The officers were constantly talking once in a while about the sermon during service to keep ourselves awake. I was really sleepy but not once did I sleep. Can't allowed that to happen! It was the first time I attended a combine company camp. Both 62nd and 87th. We are one big family in BB. We work together, eat together and most importantly grow together. Every primer has got so much potential within them. Some might be quiet, some might be a bit nosier and out-spoken. But the quiet ones stand up too with their always can be trusted attitude. There wasn't any "Operation D.F.P/D.P" Perhaps next time. Haha.

Back to work tmr. I will be all alone in my team. Can't complain because my colleagues in my team all went back in the weekends except me. I thank God because I told them I wasn't free to go back as I have a camp and they didn't ask much but agreed to what I suggested - all of you go back while I come back on Mon. I know it is going to be tired. I hope to get a Mon rest. Haha.. But it must be a dream. Evenings next week are all packed with appointments except Wed. Hope to get a day off on Wed. Just to "nuan." Haha.

It's always nice just to be in my room. It's my hiding place and the place where I can do everything I like. Away from the distractions of the tv in the living room. I had a few hrs of sleep just now. Can't sleep too much. Afraid I can't sleep later in the night. Time to catch up on my bible reading. Before I fall back too much on the schedule. This requires discipline. A discipline to cultivate it into a lifestyle. =)

Quiet, Be Still, Hearing.

2008-03-07T00:00:00.003+08:00

I went to watch Man Utd vs Lyon with my colleague on early Wed mrng at CV. Wasn't a great match really but I was super glad that Man Utd won and they have progress into the quarters! I hope for another treble this year! They last won in 1999 and I hope that they can do it again! C'mon! This isn't the most exciting part. I was there at 3am and there was no sight of the match being screen. All that was shown was the Barcelona vs Celtic preview. I was looking at my friend and asking him, "Hey, u sure the match is tonight and it is being screen?" He gave me a blank look. I ordered a cup of coffee as I was feeling really tired since I slept at 11plus. One sip and I was a bit "awake." I stared into blank space and started to do what I did best again. "Stoning"

Suddenly I was thinking about my future and the years ahead. What's going to happen to next year in my life.. The usual things that has been occupying my mind and life for the past few months. I found myself in a conversation with God. Yes.. 3plus in the mrng. A time I thought it would not happen. But it was clear and I am quite sure God told me certain things about my life. I need to wait and pray and see what's next.. Never found myself in such a situation before but I know I can put my trust in God.

I have to learn the basics again. I have to learn to be patient. I thank God for the peace He has given to me. I am taking one step at a time and I know He is a faithful God.

I have been busy with new challenges in life in the Youth Ministry. I am learning new things and doing new things. Might not really like.. but I know it's a moulding and learning process. To grow, I need to move out of comfort zone. I was just given a simple task to do today in regards to missions. When I saw the mail. I started to have complains in my heart. Gosh.. so wrong. But I went to have a sleep and I woke up feeling that I was wrong and had to sit myself down and ask for forgiveness from God.

And now I am excited about the task! Been down with flu and sore throat. Plus a bit of cough. Common sickness nowadays I guess. Am getting better now. Thank God. It's so nice to be quiet in my room and listening to 90.5FM! Such soothing music! If you can choose a choice, make it a good one, we can only choose one choice each time. Let it count that it may bring blessings to the life of others.

Psalms 23

Desire = ?

2008-03-02T01:17:00.004+08:00

The desires of your heart, God knows it! Yeah... He's our Abba Father! Sometimes I feel so confused at this juncture because it seems to be a crossroad for me. Which direction shall I go? I seriously don't know. But what I know is that God will give you the desires of your heart. He knows what you want to do for Him. How you want to serve Him. There are times when I will be afraid and ponder what's next. Should I choose this or that... and so on. But God has been here, all the while by my side. Leading me gently and guiding me.

It's Mar and the posting results will be out soon. I wonder what is the outcome. But I just need to commit to God. 1 year 1 month more, I can be free again. But am I going to choose this path? I need to walk close to God to hear Him. Everything is based on His words. If you know Him deep, you will hear Him easily. But that doesn't mean if you don't walk close to God, He won't speak to you. I have been praying and I believe He will direct my paths. Proverbs 16:9. Many options ahead, but all I want is to make a right decision that will honour and obey God. A decision that will cause ripples of blessings to flow.

Words that came to my mind during the exercise that we all did at "Hearing God's Voice" seminar.

Self: Patience & Faith.
Others: Endurance, Perseverance & Trust.

I have a God who is BIG in everything. Do you?

Uncertainties + Faith = ?

2008-02-23T23:17:00.002+08:00

Uncertainties - All ahead look so uncertain for me the more I think and ponder. Sounds negative... But it isn't ya? We all meet crossroads at different times and journey of our life. Decisions to be made and these decisions got to count right? What if I make a wrong decision? Well, God always point us back to the right direction. Although time will be wasted but if it is necessary for God to mould you through all this, then it's part of transformation process as a disciple of Christ. It may sound contradicting, but it is the truth for many of us.

I thank God that I still have time to seek Him and to know what He wants me to do and decide on the best. But it is such a challenge. Never thought that after working for four over years and I am 25 now. It never pleases me to think that I am 25 but I have learn a lot and went through a lot. Signing on was a big decision in life that I got to make when I was 20. A lot of people ask me if I regretted. I don't because at that moment in life, I had in mind what to do and hope to do. I had all the plan laid put before me and I thought I could achieve it. One thing I lack, I didn't seek God for His wisdom and guidance and of whether it was sth He wanted me to move into.

I had plan for the moment to sign on since I was in poly. I had a reason for it. But I just lack the part in seeking God. But God is good! I enjoy my four over years of working and meeting people. A different experience from my peers perhaps. I thank God for the learning through the tough and easy time. I guess one of the tough time is this week at work but it has all pass. Thank God too for teaching me to stick to the right ways and I am a man of integrity.

Faith - All that I needed now to see myself through the year ahead. Impt decisions needs to be made for my work at the end of year. Far it seems, but time is passing each day quicker than I thought. Impt decision to be made for my studies too. Studies and work, it's related, one decision I make will affect the other. Just now during combined cell, as we were singing and worshiping, I was thinking about all of these and the uncertainties I am going to face. But God spoke gently to me about the word faith and reminded me the passage from Proverbs 3:3-6. And guess what, one of my fellow brother in Christ shared briefly about this verse after that. What timing... I believe it's God's timing. Thank God that he always gives us a promise to hang onto.

I LOVE GOD.

It's midweek!

2008-02-20T15:54:00.002+08:00

Past few days has been such a rush for me at work. It all started on Mon at 8.45am. First meal I have for the day will always be my lunch. And the next meal will be at night. AUDIT. Yup. They call it audit. They audit your work practices and not finances. Funny? Don't ask me why. But it has been mad running around, getting past records, showing the auditor around doing what I can do and hope he doesn't give me a big non-conformance. That is in accordance to my work practices.

Suppose to be down at BB at this time on my duty off day. But I am too tired. Duty yesterday night wasn't all smooth sailing and I was still settling some rectifications all alone at 8pm while I could have watch tv. Lol. Thank God I slept just now and I slept for 4hrs! Feeling better now. Yup.. two more days and the audit will end but I guess the team of auditors will be moving on to some other flights and I guess my part is done. Haha. Peace.

Once again, it's interesting to know how people are moving on in each of their individual life. Sometimes we don't grow unless we go through tough journeys and realize that God is moulding us through that. We might not like it at that moment when we are facing problems but when we look back, we realize that God is teaching us something from there that changes us in character and maturity.

Each have our own journey but I believe that the most important thing is how we view God and our relationship with Him. That is the basis of everything I guess. No special methods or what but it all boils down to the basics. Sometimes we overlook so many things in life that we are just like what Jesus said in the parables in Mark 4 about the seeds that are sow. I am thankful for the many things in life. Not all smooth sailing but with God, He calms the raging seas. I just need to be faithful and have confidence in Him.

Few more things that I need to do and complete by Sat. I better stop procrastinating and get down to it. Responsibility and discipline. I need that now. =)

Getting it all wrong...

2008-02-12T22:50:00.000+08:00

Gosh... I got it all wrong... The road tax for my car has expired since 22 Jan. Yup... And I have been driving it all around during CNY. Wonder how I got myself all mixed up. Guess it was all assumption. I thought my road tax was valid till Jul this year. But it was not. Lol. Now I have been driving around in a car without a valid road tax. I have got till 22 Feb to renew it. Paying an extra fine of $20. Any longer and I will pay more. Hmm.. Can't understand why. Haha.. So funny. How did I overlook this when I was so sure it wasn't expired??

Back to work after the CNY break. Claim my off today. Suppose to be yesterday but I was nice enough to let my colleagues go off first although I have the priority. Haha. :) Still in the mood of playing and not doing anything. Ate so much today for lunch and perhaps cum dinner? But I enjoy the food. Been a long time since I went to Seoul Garden. It has change quite a bit. Price has cost so much more too. Haha. So you see.. it's has been a day of playing again.

Looking ahead, I guess it will not be so. The year is still early but now is the time where work will begin to pick up. And most surely, with the audit coming up next week, all my colleagues and I are rushing to get all the documents sorted out. More youth related activities and BB camp coming the way and that means more work and commitment. But I enjoy getting a break from work. Wed tmr. That's fast and my mum told me to come home tmr to "lao" yusheng. Cuz it's the 7th day of CNY? Haha.. they call it "ren ri" Wonder why. But I will be home. Surely. Haha.

One thing on my mind right now that I am thinking is about the cost of following Jesus. I was just thinking if I wasn't a Christian, I can do lot of things and make a lot of my own choices and things might still work out right. I can be a high flyer at my work place and climb up the political ladder thru short cuts and back-stabbing? Haha. Don't ask why, but these are just what I was thinking. But there is a cost to follow Him and be His disciple. I can still be a high flyer at my workplace, with God's blessing and favour. Things will be different when you have Jesus in your life. Don't ask me why, I can tell you a whole lot of story but only you yourself can experience and know why.

I am glad I am a disciple of Christ, although there is sacrifices to be made, but it can't compare to God giving Himself up for us. Just to save us. Enough said. I am glad to be who I am, a disciple of Christ. I want to follow Him and learn from Him all my life. Are you willing to be called His disciple?

Reflections

2008-02-06T11:30:00.000+08:00

I just realise that it's a new month.. Hasn't really been noticing.. But it's so fast that we are into Feb, the second month of year 2008. Reflecting back for Jan.. God has really been good. I see God helping me and re-assuring me in many things. and areas of my life. I am excited about what's going to happen ahead. I believe although it's not going to be easy, but it depends on how we want to live our life as a child of God.

We must live our live with a purpose. Yep.. that was what was being shared during our missions fellowship 2. I thank God for all those who have been called by God to be missionaries. They lived a really discipline life. But at the same time it can be lonely. I don't just respect them but I truely admire them for answering God's call. But at the same time, when we answer God's call, He will always be faithful and we can trust Him.

It's really a challenge to be living as young people nowadays. Yup.. It will be even more challenging years down the road. Ya.. you're hearing me correctly, the challenge is going to escalate. The world is changing everyday, challenges to do what we like and not what God like is increasing, challenges to strive for the best for ourselves and not God is increasing, challenges to live a life of Christ is increasing. This summarises all.

Do you know what God want's you to do in your life? Do you have a direction? Do you obey God's call for you or are you simply running ahead of God? Ignoring Him calling out to you? Honestly, I am 25 this year. I still feel young for God. Lol. Serious. God can use young people mightily. Believe it. Recieve it. I want to do what honours God. Nothing else but total obedience. Many people out there needs to hear the good news. Yep.. including people close around us.

How do we live our life? We have the bible with us. But we are the walking and speaking bible.

Passion, desire, calling, love, brokenness, moulding, obedience, servant, compassion, great commission, answering.

Live simply so that others might simply live.

The way it is?

2008-01-31T23:43:00.001+08:00

The way it is? Which way? Well... We should know that there is only one way. Yup... If you dunno which way, pls ask me. Not a very gd day for me. I did things I shouldn't have done at work. Both gd and bad? No.. I think it's both gd and gd. Took half day off yesterday and when i was back this mrng for work.. things was in a mess. Grim faces from my warrant officers. Bad day I suppose. And it was.. first brief and it was related to me.. Hmm.. But I thank God I took it in stride but possibly not the best way but I can assure I gave my best attitude in replying and carrying out the after actions. Complicated.. But it was just the way it was. My colleague reacted worse than me.

Work woes. But God is good and I give thanks to him. I tidied up area which my colleague and I messed up. I actually enjoy myself although I breathe in a lot of dust and got myself dirty and sweaty. But I learn that I have manage to control my anger or temper better and it's all God's glory. Some might think that it's not a big issue, but it is to me and I thank God for the change. Well.. I am happy and I see God so faithful in areas of my life. I am encouraged by God in so many ways and I feel excited about things happening! So for those who might be feeling down or unmotivated.. God is our source of strength. He will refresh us! So keep looking to him because He wants to draw us near and He is the shepherd of our soul! Psalms 23.

In awe... of God!

2008-01-26T00:26:00.000+08:00

I know it's kind of a late.. But I got to blog this before I forget. I knew a few days ago that I have got to share for devotion during BB Parade. I wanted to prepare... But I just didn't do it so I didn't have anything on hand to share! However, during the first devotion that I shared during parade, I shared with the Boys about 4Bs. One of the Bs was BELIEVE. During the past few days, it was just running thru my mind that it'll be good to run thru with the Boys again the 4Bs one by one for each devotion that I am gonna take. To use each Bs as a devotion lesson.

But I procrastinated and the thought just stayed on in my mind. I just came back home not long ago. Decided to find some devotion materials from the net to share with the Boys. I had save a website link that consists of youth materials. I click on the Devotionals for Teens. And you know what was the devotional about? You're right! It was about BELIEVING!!! Believe it or not! I am really awe by what's happening. God just seems to know every single need and thing that I need. I mean... Seriously... I couldn't believe my eyes in the first place. The material just appear right in front of me. I didn't expect that. But that's God, He does the unexpected!

I just needed to print it out and share from the material. Awesome. Absolutely awesome. The verse was Mark 11:24. "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours."

Right now, I am just really excited about this... I am really excited and I want to give thanks to God. I believe He is really affirming me to share from the 4Bs! Awesome God! Hallelujah!!

Missions Fellowship

2008-01-20T20:22:00.000+08:00

Something I learned earlier on:

Spiritual Emptiness - We all feel empty at some point in our lives, even being a Christian. So what's more for the people around us who have yet to know Christ? Who can fill up the emptiness and satisfy us that we will not thirst?

Something interesting:

1. We have a past that is being forgiven. Nailed on the cross and done with.

2. We have a purpose to lived for in Christ. Not our own purpose but Christ's purpose for us.

3. We have an eternal home in heaven waiting for us.

To me, I think this is the best deal that one can ever find. Not a deal per se... But I think this is what we can shared with our friends.

U.I.O.F

2008-01-20T14:49:00.000+08:00

U - Upward worship towards God.

I - Inward change in yourself.

O - Outward service towards God.

F - Forward growth.

It was just on the thoughts of my mind that a lot of times, a lot of us including myself always ask what God can do for me, but not what I can do for God. It seems so inward looking. Always me, me, me. Not very healthy. But I want to change to more upwards looking. What I can do for God, for people, not about myself but others.

Love God, Love Others - Our Church Theme for 2008

Remind me everyday pls!

Faith

2008-01-20T01:47:00.000+08:00

It's end of the week. I thank God for His favor at work. Although some things being said about me at work wasn't nice. But my God is my judge. Perhaps I didn't do up to expectation. But I gave my best and I am still trying. I got a new secondary appt. A lot of things to handle and learn. Not one of the easiest but I will try. I will not give up but stay positive because I do unto the Lord and not unto men.

I thank God for friends, for people who have walk alongside with me and most importantly, for all that God has done for me. That is to die on the cross for our sins. I thank Him for this reminder. I am excited about the things ahead. In BB, Youth, my own life, and my relationship with God. Faith. It is so impt. I pray that I will have the faith just like that of Abraham.

You don't have to see the way when
you know that your God is the way.

Learning to trust...

2008-01-15T20:36:00.000+08:00

I am tired! I was late for work for the past week including yesterday! And I got my final warning. One more time and you get an extra duty. Yeah... This is military. Well... I didn't choose to be late. I went to work as usual at the same time. But TPE keep having massive jam. I couldn't do much. I couldn't have taken the road shoulder thou.. But it's against the law. Temptation was there to take the road shoulder and not be late.. But I guess it will be rather dangerous and I chose not to. Normally I would reach by 7.45am if I leave at the usual time but there was a day during last week when I reach at 9.30am. Calculate the time I was stuck in the jam. I am tired cuz I slept late yesterday and had to wake up earlier than usual today to go work early. So I am going to sleep early tonight!

I was just praying and sometimes it seems difficult to trust God. Many things I am trusting God for in this year. It's so impt to me and I am really trusting Him to teach me to make the right decisions and decisions that will honor and in obedience to Him. It seems difficult when you think God is keeping quiet. But does He? I think it's just a time of waiting and teaching to wait upon Him for His direction. I must be thankful. For all big or small things. I still rem the first sermon of the year also talks abt being thankful. So I am learning.

But it feels comforting to know that God's favor will always be upon you and if I chose to walk in obedience, God will give the best to me! Yeah. Another day of work tmr and I hope to play some street soccer. It's sports day tmr aft at work. So God, I pray that it will not rain!

Lifestyle

2008-01-13T00:30:00.000+08:00

Love God, Love others. That's the theme for this year. We discuss about the two greatest commandments during cell group. Love the Lord your God with all heart, mind, soul and strength. Love your neighbors as you love yourself. I went for the Youth Strategy Seminar today. It was good and I learn a lot of things. It also help to put certain things or thoughts in perspective for me. Although it was for a day, I was tired but I felt it was really good to be there. It also touch on Love God and Love others.

So well.. I think all these that happen isn't coincidence. I believe this is really what God has put into my heart and I hope in the hearts of many other YMMers. This week was rather normal for me. Work was a bit hectic cuz I was busy sorting out all my secondary appt admin matters. But I thank God that I was able to spend time with Him everyday in the morning. I think this habit is slowly becoming a lifestyle and I want to keep this good habit! I feel at peace with God and I know I can trust Him. It's just week two of the year so I got to fifty more weeks to go!

Tired.. So I will end here. Still got more things to say.. But can't think now. Just to summarize. God is good all the time and all the time, God is good!!!

Lifestyle - Impt word. I will explain more next time.

Still the same?

2008-01-06T22:09:00.000+08:00

No way! Yeah... a week has pass and things aren' t the same. Work has got more politics going on than before. Argh... wish I could just be away from all the arrows flying round. What's more... another audit is coming up in Feb after CNY and we got to work super hard to clear up and tidy up all our admin stuffs... tiring work. But do I have a choice? Haha. I do it for the Lord and not for men! Thank God I kept reminding myself about this or I guess my attitude for work will go back to the same as it was last year. Bo Chup attitude. Lol. No gd. But I have changed! So that is why it's not the same! Haha.

I enjoy cell time on Fri. There weren't a lot of people but it was a good time after the busy month of Dec last year to see the cell coming back together for the first time in the New Year. We did a bit of sharing within the mens group and ladies and prayed for one another after that. As usual we always have refreshments after cell and I love the carrot cake! Or perhaps it's radish cake. I dunno. But it was really sweet and nice when eaten warm. Yummy.

Weekend seems to be more tiring than my first three days at work. Well... BB on Sat then after parade, I had to stay out to "chopped" courts for games day with a group of YWAM friends. But guess what? It rained! But well... there was always plan B. And Sunday was spend hosting the YWAM group. Tiring but it was really an enriching experience to interact with them and a blessing to hear from them about their testimonies.

These group of people really came from different parts of the world. Norway, Scotland, USA, Hawaii, Brazil, Germany, Korea etc... I can't name it all. Too many! They are attending the DTS by YWAM. As I interact with them, I was once again reminded by God that we're all on a different journey with Him. Not every of them went to DTS knowing what they want to do after that. But they all had something in common, it is their heart for God and His people.

Perhaps all this while, my own perception was that to attend all these courses or schools, you have got to be 100% ready and prepared. But after today, it has changed. We will not be perfect on our time on earth. But we are working towards perfection day by day by the grace and mercy of God. I can't describe in words what God has planted in my heart. But He knows it and I thank God for helping me to understand certain things in life.

Summary of today's daily bread:

Decisions or choices you make are important. It can have ripples effect of blessings or sometimes, ripples effect of problems.

Appreciation & Contentment

2008-01-01T14:45:00.000+08:00

I was looking through the old photos of past mission trips that I have been to. Mission trips has indeed been a way of training from God for me. I have done things I don't do in Singapore when on mission trips. I do not have a choice. I can't do as I wished. I have to move out of my comfort zone. Yup. As I looked back, I would not have grown as a Christian in another manner if not for missions. I have learn to take things as they are. Not to expect too much because what I have in Singapore is already so much better off than others.

Food that I have, houses that I lived in, streets that I walked in, transport that I take, people that I see, shops that I go to, especially 7-11 that is available 24hrs a day, health care that is available. Many more to say, I appreciate all these. Honestly to say, India is one place that I am actually afraid to go back if an opportunity for a short-term mission trip is available. Kind of afraid of that place and people. Don't ask why. I don't know.

But as I look through the past photos, I remember that the people there are great. Not difficult to mixed or communicate with. And I think when the opportunity opens up to serve God in an country, there is no reason to talk about comfort zone or what you want to suit your needs. You move on with it.

I want to learn to not be wasteful, be appreciative, contented with what I have. Sometimes, it's difficult to find contentment when things around you are moving at such fast pace in the kind of society we lived in in Singapore. Taking time aside to reflect and to seek God is the best way to let Him restore and refresh you. Do you need that? Take the time off to reflect and appreciate the people around you and be appreciative of all the things God has given to you.

The difference I see...

2007-12-29T01:18:00.000+08:00

It's the time of the year... 3 more days for year 2007! Some of us look forward to a new year, some of us don't. It all depends on your own opinion. For me? I am looking forward to year 2008. Although it might be a busier year and surely a more challenging one for me, I believe in God's providence and guidance. Yes... 2007 wasn't a easy year for me, honestly if you ask me, it was really tough. Real tough.

I was sitting down recently and I was asking myself if there was anything I could thank God for. For a few moments, it seems that there was nothing! Impossible! I told myself to think harder and I will write down things that I want to thank God for for 2007. And praise Him, I wrote down quite a lot. So even in a year which I thought was so tough for me, there was still many things that I could thank God for. Hallelujah.

Why is this blog titled "The difference I see..."? It is because we are all in a different journey of our life. I am once again reminded by God that we are all on a different journey. It's a journey that will bring us closer to him. Yes... We can't see Him. But indeed it's true that all the things He had done in our lives is evident that God has always been present. The abundant blessings that He has poured forth in my life. It is something that only each can know and relate to God.

This is also the time of the year that many of us take time out to reflect on our lives. I thank God for this week. I am on leave from work. For the past two weeks, I have been on leave. Never thought that just by "nuaing" at home can be so so nice. I always never thought that I needed a break from work. I thought that mission trips will be a time of serving and resting for me. That was for the past few years. But I have realised that not to do anything is then really considered rest. All major events in church was already over by then. So I was really well-rested. Thank God.

A promise and reminder from God as I prayed just now. I prayed that I can live a life of obedience and a life that will be different form others, no matter how tough situations can be at times. This verse really left an impression on me. Who says God doesn't speak nowadays? It is whether we want to tune in to God's frequency. =)

For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it. What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man gives in exchange for his soul?

Matthew 16:25-26

Oh yeah... one more thing... this word has been used quite often by a group of my friends.

RANDOM

I am back and counting down...

2007-12-23T01:06:00.000+08:00

Yes... I am back form Taiwan! Haha. Yeah. So enjoy my hols. It was a nice trip. Went to many places of interest. I enjoy all the scenery. Quite a bit of traveling. Most of time traveling on buses was spent on sleeping to catch up on rest as we have to wake up quite early everyday. Moreover, I was sleeping late everyday cuz I watch TV. Haha... Taiwan has got 100 plus channels on their TV. So I just kept watching and watching. I saw the Man Utd vs Liverpool match. And needless to say, you all know the score. Great job Man Utd!

The best highlights for the trip other than the scenery was the hotel stay and meals provided. The food just got better and better from the first day. I had bamboo rice, shabu shabu (steamboat), dinner at a place that looks like a jungle etc. Wonderful! Rooms were big. I had a queen size bed all to myself everyday. Ha... best of all, on the last night, we had a hotel room that consists of a kitchen, a living room plus a bedroom where we sleep, washing machine... it looks just like a home! Haha.

Now that I am back, I thank God for the relaxing time that I had. I feel well rested. It has been my first real hols since my last to Bangkok before my enlistment to NS. I have another week of leave before I go back on the 2nd Jan of the new year of 2008 for my first day of work. I just want to take more rest and pray that God will recharge me to prepare me for the new year ahead. Looking to Him and trusting in Him, I believe He will lead me and show me the way ahead. Just keep my eyes on Him. Thank You Lord. =)

It's the last week!

2007-12-10T20:13:00.000+08:00

Yes... it's my last week at work for this year. I will be on leave till 2008. Haha. Looking forward to the weekend. Cuz I will be flying off to Taiwan for my holidays!. My long awaited holiday. If I don't rem wrongly, my last holiday was like 4 years ago when I went to Bangkok just before I got enlisted into NS. How time flies!

A month since I last blog... and I am feeling happy and relax right now cuz all the events that I am involved in in church are over! Yeah... no more mtgs! Haha. Thank God for everything He has done thru all these events. I pray that all these events will really help us to bridge closer to the Youths in the schools.

Much as the year is coming to a close. I do have to start planning and prepare myself for the new year ahead. I know God will show me the way. It hasn't been a easy year but I believe 2008 will be better! Still, I give thanks to God. Because I know what I go thru is a journey with Him that no one can experience or know. It's so special. Just between me and God.

I feel comfortable just being in His presence and that itself is so impt. Cuz I know He will always be here for me no matter what. That's God. =) So X'mas is coming and honestly, I still do not know what I will be doing for the eve of X'mas. I am not in caroling team, my cell is probably not going to invite guest. So nothing seems to be left... Haha. Maybe I shld just enjoy my X'mas eve and see what happens next. Right now, I am very thankful to God for all He has done and I am looking forward to Sat to Taiwan!

Go figure it out...

2007-11-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

I was reminded by an equation taught to me a few years ago when I was a younger youth.

Love = Trust x Time

In the eyes of God...

2007-11-02T18:17:00.000+08:00

It's my duty off day today. Not as if I have lots of off-in-lieu... (I do have plenty, but can't find the time to clear it... if I disappear from work for too long, I might be view as a slacker.. Haha..) I am glad to spend time at home and sleep! Excellent! I was talking to some of my church friends the other days over dinner and sleeping is one of the best and common hobbies! Agree? And we even joke that the more u sleep, the better your facial complexion. Haha. But the not so excellent thing is I have to work tmr, for the whole day. Some sort of one day exercise going on. And I am afraid I will miss the match btw Man Utd and Arsenal! But Man Utd will surely win! Yeah! C'mon all Man Utd fans, cheer with me! =)

I also had the time to visit people's blog and read their post. Haha... It's fun to read people's blog. I realised that some are growing closer to God while some might are drawing further away from God. (Disclamer: No judgement here but my own random feelings and thoughts) Conclusion is we're all different in the eyes of God. Special in His sight. He made us and He knows us. I am glad to be able to talk to one of the Youths in church today thru msn. I am happy for him that he is thinking about his future. Kudos to you. Trust in God and He will make your paths straight.

We need not fill the emptiness in ourselves up with the things of the world but rather, God can fill the emptiness or rather, I would call it hunger and thirst.

To be con't... If I have the time... :)

So quick... so fast!

2007-10-20T23:01:00.000+08:00

Nov and Dec... Just two more months to Year 2008! Unbelievable. Everyday just seem to be passing more quickly than I can ever imagine. I go to work in the mrng and soon it will be lunch time and after a while more, it's time to knock off for work. Perhaps I have been more busy than before at work. So it's a breeze when I am working. Unless there are really difficult things to handle. Or else work has been fine. Thank God. Never thought that it will be fun working. Finally. Home come? Haha...

And ya... then the weekend comes quickly but passes quickly too. Now that Sat BB parades are back, I can't sleep in on Sat mrngs! No more late Sat mrngs for me! Argh... See? What I say is so true... A while more and it will be Sunday, the last day of the week. Or perhaps some would like to differ, they would say it's the beginning of the week.

I am done with most of my stuff... just going to read bit before I sleep. and hopefully Man Utd will win big at Aston Villa. Scoring at least 3 goals and letting in none! Man Utd supporter always!

I will have no other gods before you

2007-10-06T13:45:00.000+08:00

We sang this song for cell grp on Fri night. It goes sth like this:

I will have no other gods before you,
Only you will reign as my heart's King,
I will have no other gods before you,
I will put you first in everything.

But I forgotten the chorus... haha. Really felt God speaking to me thru this song. It just ran thru my mind for the whole night. Have I put other things or areas in my life above God? That was the qns I was asking myself the whole night. But I know God is faithful and always loving us. And I thank Him that no matter what, He's there. He yearns to communicate with us but are we yearning to communicate with Him too? Or are we just putting him second in our lives?

Are we expecting to meet Him today in the midst of our busyness?

God meets us at our level of expectancy.

What's in it for me?

2007-09-03T14:39:00.000+08:00

Is it for God or is it for me? It's your attitude that counts. Yup. You have heard me right. It's your attitude that counts. This is so impt in many things that we do. I just listen to an audio sermon and the title is "What's in it for me?" Yup. What are we thinking of when we serve God? For God or for me? Can God do without me? Definitely. Without you? Surely. So why serve God then? Have you ever ask yourself that? If God can do without us and His ministry can still go on, then why serve? It's because of our love for God. Ya... the audio sermon was really gd!

Hmm... other than that, another thing I have just learn, and I mean just learn is to watch what you say! And I am serious abt it. Watch what you say or share! Mouth is such a powerful thing. Never really realize until I am caught in it myself. So pls, next time, think before you say anything. Some things we say or share might not be impt in our eyes or perhaps we think it might not not have any impact. But that is what we think. So think before you speak. Who knows what you says actually carry certain impact. So to sum it all, think before you speak. And speak if necessary. We have to many lessons to learn from. You wouldn't want to learn to regret so learn to think before you speak!

The choice is yours...

2007-08-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

I have been sleepy lately. Always not enough sleep. Can get quite tiring at work. Lesser people in my team. But the work load stays the same. Today while at work with my buddy, we both realized that we can actually complete a job quite fast if we both want to. A week's work can likely be completed in perhaps two days? Provided we don't have last minute input of work. (Which is unlikely to happen) It's a choice we can make.

I haven't been waking up early to do my quiet time. Trying hard, but the spirit is willing, body is weak. Haha. Praying? I have been praying but again sometimes the mind just wander off. Haha. Again, it's a choice we can make.

So everyday consists of many choices we can make. Important decisions. I went for a two days course this week. I learn a lot of things from the course. It was on essential communications. Will I just learn and forget? Or will I apply it in my life? It's a choice we can make.

The Nation's Birthday!

2007-08-09T23:01:00.000+08:00

It was great to be at the Marina to celebrate the nation's b'day! The atmosphere was really electrifying. So different from watching it at home. My first time seeing the fireworks so near to me. And it was really really beautiful. I promise. The lightings effects was wow... everything was fantastic. But the only thing is that I didn't get the goody bag! Cuz I went in with my pass and I don't have a ticket and they only give it to ticket holder. So well... I hope I do get one after all the weeks of commitment. Haha.

It was terrible when going home. It was the GSS. Not Great Singapore Sale but rather Great Singapore Squeeze. The MRT station was virtually filled with people. Overflowing to the outside. And once I was in the MRT, the odour was like wow... Thank God I am tall and I kept taking breaths with my head up. Pity those who are not so tall... No offense.

Students are a privilege lot. Don't need to go to school tmr cuz it's another holiday for them. But I don't rem when I was a student that the day aft National Day is a holiday. What are school getting up to nowadays? Haha. Poor adults got to go back to work. Poor us. Haha. Feeling hungry... Think I will go look for some food to eat. That's all and Happy Birthday Singapore! =)

Focus - Which direction?

2007-08-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

Focus on what's right with your life rather than "what's wrong?"

“…Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.”

Philippians 4:8

If time stays still...

2007-08-06T01:42:00.000+08:00

It's near to 2am on an early Mon mrng of a new week. Yup. I'm just back from watching soccer at S11 coffeeshop. The charity shield match btw Man Utd and Chelsea. I am happy. Very happy indeed that Chelsea lost to us! Haha. But the season is yet to start and there will be a long way to go. So we shall see who shall be at the top of the table at the end of the season.

I just hope time will stand still. Never to move on or to move back. To move on means more challenges and perhaps probs. To move back means you are not progressing at all. It may sound ironic or contradicting but that is the way it is. Don't you think so? If time never moves on, then you can always linger in the goodness. Well... for reality sake, it will not happen. It might perhaps happen one day in the spiritual aspect, when God's presence is so strong that you just feel as if time never moves on.

I am tired yet I know my mind is fill with thoughts and what's going to happen ahead. I need to commit to God. To really learn to surrender and let God lead and guide me. It's a time of trusting and believing in Him. I know I can do it. I am an overcomer! Waiting for my exams to be over and I will be more free up by then. I would like to spend time once I am free up to do some reflections since the year is coming to an end soon. It will be really nice to be quiet and just spend time with God.

It's hard nowadays cuz our world is always filled with "external" noises. We are so distracted and I really long to have some peace at times! But it's not easy. Okie... I better stop here if not I can really go on and on. I am excited too. Excited abt the things happening around me.

Yes Lord, rekindle the flame that will burn for you eternally, never to diminish.

Choices, Options & Decisions.

2007-08-04T08:18:00.000+08:00

We have a lot of options open up to us everyday, different choices to choose from. But we can only make one decision and that have to be right. I mean who would like to make a wrong decision? Haha. Well, but that decision either comes after you pray about it or you can jolly well make your own decision and choose to regret.

But does God still help when you made a wrong decision? I believe He still do and perhaps, He will open up more doors or opportunities for you. This is a way of training I suppose. So don't despair when you face tough times or you got to make a decision in your life. One wrong move or decision doesn't defeat you for the rest of your life. It's your perspective of how you gonna move on strong from there. With many options and choices available in the world, make the right choice, don't fall to temptations. God is always there for us.

Just my random thoughts! Anyway, its the beginning of the weekend and it's still early in the morning!

How big is our God?

2007-08-01T20:40:00.000+08:00

I was asking this qns as I was preparing to begin my revision for my exams. And after some thoughts, our God is really big. Bigger than anything in life. We do the same things day in and day out. It has more or less become a norm for me to start my revision at home after my dinner when I don't have classes.

But today, I just find it hard to study and wonder if studying is really so difficult. Did God face any problems when He created earth? Did He think of the difficulties and became daunted by it? I doubt so because He is the creator of the universe. The Alpha and Omega. Yes, qns answered. Not my own answer, but God is teaching me something by telling me this. If my God has got no problems in overcoming. Why should I? I am sure my BIG GOD is able to help me through.

Feeling kind of lazy and sleepy. But I guess coffee will do it and help perk me up! Still got to prepare myself mentally for a presentation tmr. It's been a long time since I presented using power-point. But I know God is my confidence. And I want to thank God that I am promoted officially today! Haha. =) This means my date to early release is getting nearer. Haha.

Gotto be focus and not be distracted. Look to God always. Matt 6:33 - "But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

"Happy moments, PRAISE GOD. Difficult moments, SEEK GOD. Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD. Painful moments, TRUST GOD. Every moment, THANK GOD."

I love the weather!

2007-07-29T19:48:00.000+08:00

Yes, I love the weather! Weather has been great recently. Not that hot in the day or too cold in the night. It has been raining recently almost everyday and it's so cool just to sit there and do nothing and just enjoy the comfort of the cool weather.

Yup. Sipping my cup of hot coffee. So nice. Yup... I love to drink coffee. Play street soccer just now. Body feeling tired. But it was great to sweat it out. It has never been so nice to exercise in the early evening. It was raining before that but thank God for stopping the rain and keeping the sun under the clouds.

National Day is just round the corner. It wouldn't really be a holiday for me cuz exams will be right after that. It's more of a time for me to study and I hope I can churn out time cuz I have to be at Marina as usual to do the usual things and I get to enjoy the full NDP! I put my trust in God and I know he will bring me thru. Whether for the better or worse. I have really learn to trust God and I know that my relationship with God has change and move on to another level. I am desiring for more of Him and I believe He will show me the way.

FAITH = RISK - In order for your faith to grow, you will need to take risk. Something I learn in the past week.

It's a brand new week tmr and most of us will be feeling "blue" going back to work or school. I am too but I ask myself, where is my hope? If my hope and trust is in the Lord, my joy will be in Him too. So I will rejoice and be glad in Him because I know God is my fortress and my strength!

"Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth."

Psalms 46:10

Is trust = believing?

2007-07-28T14:43:00.000+08:00

Is trust = believing? To a certain extent I suppose. Why I ask this qns? Cuz I have been asking this qns for the past few days. Haha. :D

Ya... Today is NDP preview. It is surely going to be very pack. I can't even drive there since all the roads around Marina Promenade is gonna be close. But I guess I am going to drive to somewhere close there, park and take MRT. Cuz I need to rush back for Youth Service. So I suppose driving back will save me some time rather than taking MRT. Yup. So that's the plan.

It's weekend again and I am not left with much time before my first exam. Gonna spend time studying again tonight. Must cut down my playing and hanging out time. Oh ya... Slept till so late this mrng before I went to BB. So yet to do my Q.T. Going to do it tonight when I am home! Time is passing so fast. Seriously, I can't believe that another week had pass. But that is time, u either make use of the time u have or u waste it. It's ur choice. A decision u gotto make. :)

Yup, time is running out, gotto change and go for the NDP Preview. Sure very crowded. Looking forward to the Youth Service tonight. I believe it's gonna be exciting cuz God will be there with us! =)

It's my day! Live it to the fullest!

2007-07-26T09:37:00.000+08:00

Yeah! It's my day. My off day! Haha. I am so glad to be able to take off for today so that I can spend time revising. A lot to revise for my exams. I seriously don't know where to begin but I believe that God will lead me and teach me. I just got to start!

I have gotten back my car and I am glad to be driving it again. Although it's a manual car, but I think it has serve me really well. I have got to use my 2 hands and legs again unlike the auto car I was driving a few days ago where I just need to use one leg and at times one hand. Haha. Auto cars are for lazy people! Haha. Just JK.

Thank God for this nice cool mrng. The weather has been really nice and it so comfy to sleep in at nite! *Yawnz* Wasn't sleeping well over the weekend and beginning of the week. Kept waking up in the middle of the night. But after praying to God, I had a gd sleep and I am feeling alert and gd now! :)

A lot of things are happening. I pray that it will be for the gd. Changes needs time for one to adapt. Adaptability depends on one's character. So how am I going to handle changes and challenges? It's going to depends on my character and my confidence in God! That's the 4Cs!

Psalms 37

Time is counting down

2007-07-22T15:48:00.000+08:00

Yeah... Time is counting down. Counting down to my exam soon. I don't wanna count the exact no. of days. Looks scary. But from today's sermon. We should taken authority in our own lives. Scare I might be for my exam. But I have trust in God that I am going to make it. Not just make it. But I believe that I will do better than my other previous modules.

- I will do my best and God will do the rest -

I am going to return the new car that I have been driving for the past few days tmr evening. Cuz my car will be done with the repair by then. Enjoy driving the auto car. It's really new and comfy but the fuel consumption is really terrible. Top up twice within 3 days. So I will rather have back my sunny and my sunny is a bit more powerful I feel although it's an older car. Haha.

Capstans ball ended yesterday and I would say YMM did quite well. Both the juniors and seniors made it to the semis. It was really fun but yet at the same time, it was quite messy and chaotic at times. Haha.

It's gonna be end of July soon. Ya... Time is really running out fast! Can't believe it!

Am I adaptable?

2007-07-17T22:43:00.000+08:00

I am done with my quiz! Hurray! Now for the next challenge. My exams in 3 more weeks and I have to deal with two papers. Right now, I just hope to have a gd rest and prepare for tmr!

Someone bang my car from the back just now. Quite hard I would say cuz it really jerk hard. Things in the car boot topple too. Poor guy who bang my car. It seems he really got to compensate quite a bit. Most likely I have to change the whole bumper. Just wondering how am I going to survive while my car is under repair. Can I take the MRT or bus? How convenient is it? Am I willing? Well... We will see how things work out. I really don't know. Perhaps I have to learn to adapt again. Might be fun though. Haha.

Thank God for helping me in the quiz and that I am fine with no injuries. Right now, I am just going to have a gd rest! :)

Just another day or is it Monday?

2007-07-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

Is today another day or it's Monday, the first day of a brand new week? Perspective. It's up to u to look at it and for u to decide. =) Well... I had sushi for dinner today. Met up with my sec sch friends. So full from all the sushi!

Had one of my tooth filled up today because there was a hole. Asked the dentist when can I chew food on that part and she told me one hr later. Guess what? I ate sushi and when I came home, finish my bath, look at my tooth and realized that the filling is coming off. Shake it a bit with my finger and it came off! Couldn't believe it. What kind of filling is that? Now that I am off tmr, I have to wait till Wed to go find the dentist and tell her about this. Meanwhile, I gotto live with the hole in my tooth for a day!!

Isaiah 40:13 - An encouragement. =)

Buru Team 2

2007-07-15T22:37:00.000+08:00

Yup. This is my fav team. So must post the team pic.

Buru Team 2:

- Keep the fire burning! -

It's been a long time!

2007-07-15T22:25:00.000+08:00

It's been more than half a year. So much has happen. Especially for the month of June. I shall not want to elaborate but I thank God for the trying time that He has put me through.

Felt so bored so I finally decided to type something in my blog to kill off time. I have given it a new look too! Haha. My mind is too saturated from all the studying. Why must I study??? :( So much to say for what happen in the past half a year. Don't think I can type it all out. But a sentence to sum it all: " When the going gets tough, only the tough gets going. "

This is my blog and I am so glad I can say anything I want! =)

My fav pic from Buru:

Lucky Blues...

2006-12-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

JuSt-In TiMe FoR eVeRyOnE! :)

They don't deserve to win! But... the two goals by Lampard and Drogba was gd. And it was enough to seal their win. Don't be too happy yet Chelsea fans... although u have close the gap to two points, but if u keep up on this level of form, u will soon be trailing Man Utd! So Man Utd, pls win and keep up the gd form!

2006 is coming to an end...

2006-12-03T22:35:00.000+08:00

JuSt-In TiMe FoR eVeRyOnE! :)

Yup... the year is coming to an end. Right now, I am filling up my enrolment form for my studies next year. Hmm... it sure look stress. I am beginning to feel scared and worried. New year means that there will be new challenges.

But well... God has been reminding me to look beyond these things. Keep looking to Him and all will be fine. Why? Cuz He says that He is the Alpha and Omega, the First and Last is He. Awesome isn't it? How many of us have really sat down and think abt God and thk Him for who He is rather than keep telling God, Lord bless me with this and that, help me with this and that.

In reality, God wants our heart given to Him totally. So it talks abt surrendering. Not a easy thing to do but what does surrendering really means? Theoretical answers? I have heard most of them.

Will reveal more when I know what's surrendering really abt. Got to con't with my personal admin stuffs before I can zzz. Well... God bless me for the week ahead!!!

One way...

2006-11-16T11:25:00.000+08:00

JuSt-In TiMe FoR eVeRyOnE! :)

Many of times, a lot of us are always trying to find a way out. A way out of our personal probs, work, family, relationships etc. But God says He is faithful. Whatever hardships that we are going to face in the future ahead, He teaches us to be courageous and rem His blessings, help and miracles that will help us to continue.

He is the way, the one and only way to life. Remembering His blessings has given me comfort. Journey ahead looks tough but commit to Him and I know He will provide a way out for me at the right time. I just need to spend quality time with Him cuz God loves me and I have been neglecting Him. Focus is the key. Determination is the way. Am I ready? Yes I am!

Pslam 77 - Read it.

Beginning or ending?

2006-11-15T15:45:00.000+08:00

JuSt-In TiMe FoR eVeRyOnE! :)

3 days! I had 3 days of exercise. Simulation of war time scenarios. A bit dumb at times but can be quite fun too. Yesterday was the worse. Had to stay in for one night. And right after dinner, I was running all around the whole base for all the simulations. Never got back to my resting place till one plus and only slept at 2am. With all the others snoring loudly!

Back at home now... Going to take a rest and recover my sleep! Many more things to come in the next few weeks. Around 6 more weeks and Christmas will be here. Looking forward to it. So what's in ahead for me? I don't know. But will it be a beginning or ending? It's for God to decide. I will just be obedient. =)

My Day...

2006-11-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

JuSt-In TiMe FoR eVeRyOnE! :)

Today is my day. Why? Because I am free! Haha. Eileen has gone to camp and I am left all alone! But my day is full of excitement... I think. Hee. I was sleeping so well for the mrng till my phone rang and I answered it. Then came this pre-recorded msg telling me that I have a recall. But as usual, I was already prepared for it cuz news have been leaked out that there will be a recall today.

But I didn't expect it to come at ths time. Normally it would happen at early mrng like 6am. But this time its unusual. Back to recall, anyone knows why when there is a recall, they always drop u a hint abt the day they gonna recall u? That is a bit stupid right? Recall is suppose to be sudden and secret. Hmm... This is one thing I have been wondering for a long long time.

Came back and spent the rest of the aft reading and napping. Hehe. But I will be back to work on Sun! So... I dunno what to say. But it's my work right? So no complains. But thk God it's only for half a day. So dun expect to see me in church. Yup one more day and it's Mon... Back to work! :)

The one word that came...

2006-10-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

Restoration

This is the word that came to my mind when I was checking my mail and reading on people's blog. I was asking God how I can pray and this is the word that came - RESTORATION.

1 month has pass!!!

2006-10-08T22:46:00.000+08:00

So quickly!!!

Yup... it speaks for itself. Time flies! I was just looking at some of my old photos that I have in my com. Youth photos and personal ones. Wow... I look young then and I still am. Ha. The youths were much younger and now they have all grown up. So do some of the uncles and aunties from church! I was 21yrs old in 2004 and now I am 24yrs old.

Next year and I will be 25yrs old! How I wish at times I would just remain 21yrs old! So much fun I had a few yrs back when I don't have to be bothered by work and adult issue. But back then, there were issues a youth had to deal with too. This is growing up.

Fun going to mission trip, youth programs and hang out. But the more I get older, the more I seem to miss out. This is change. Changes takes place in everyone and everywhere. But growing older has made me a little wise. (I think so. Anyone disagree?) Haha.

I thank God for those older uncles and aunties or rather older bros and sis. They have the wisdom and are wise. I thank God that they shared with gd advices and love for we younger ones and help to direct us in the Lord's path if at times wehave strayed away.

God is gd. I thank God for salvation and His death. Cuz this has help me to know that my identity is in Him and Him alone! Thks for all those who have help me and come along side with me in the different times of my life. Trust in Jesus and Jesus alone and you will know that life isn't just exciting but fulfiling and beautiful no matters what may come!

Look out for my next update! (Perhaps in another month? Haha... Or perhaps can I know who reads my blog? Hee.)

Update time...

2006-08-27T22:43:00.000+08:00

Dengue fever!

Time for an update on my blog! Okie... I have been on MC for the past 11days! Why? Cuz I got bitten by a aedes mozzie and got dengue fever. I was so sick for the first four days. Fever kept going up and down and all the strength I had was to lie in bed.

My mum was so worried that she kept telling me don't sleep too much. Get up and walk around. But all the strength I could mustered was to walk to the toilet, sit down and pee. I was even too weak to stand up. Believe it or not... Well, it was an experience for me. There were moments I was lying on bed, fever, headache and body ache so bad that I ask myself if I was dying. Serious. That was dengue for me.

As I was just slowly recovering on the fifth day, I had to go to TTSH for a blood test cuz my initial blood test at my family clinic shows that my platelets count was low. At that moment, I still didn't know that I had contracted dengue. Went to TTSH, was send home after the blood test and told that my platelets count was low and to come back tmr mrng for another test. Was also told that it was likely dengue that could cause such low platelets count. And I was warned that I will be warded tmr if my platelets count con't to drop.

True enough, the next day, my platelets count drop and I had to be warded. One night spend at CDC, 3meals taken, 2pkts of drip for my body, 7 testubes of blood taken from my right arm and I am free to go home. Diagnosis - Dengue fever.

I had suffered during the first four days with such terrible fever and none of the doctors I visited knew or thought that it was dengue. Just as I was recovering, I had to stay one night at CDC. And guess what... I left a souveneir at CDC. My clothes. I was so excited I could go that I didn't checked properly although the nurse did remind me a couple of times to double checked. By the time I discovered my carelessness, it was too late by then. Haha.

An experience. But I thank God for giving me a strong body and immune system to fight this virus. I am so healthy looking and fit now but I have to rest at home and to give up certain activities that are strenous. But thank God, it's only for a few weeks. I should let my body rest then. 3more days of MC and I will be back to work. Haha. :)

Sat mrng!

2006-08-12T11:52:00.000+08:00

JuSt-In TiMe FoR eVeRyOnE! :)

The winds are your messengers;
flames of fire are your servants.
Psalms 104:4 (NLT)

Time to...

2006-08-07T22:13:00.000+08:00

JuSt-In TiMe FoR eVeRyOnE! :)

It's time to blog after 1 over months? I have been too too lazy to blog. But well... I gotto find time to after so many things have happen. But don't expect a long blog that will make u bored. Haha. it rhymes. :) I will just keep everything short to the point. Helps me to keep in view the things happening in my life too!

My gf is back and well... I am happy! I have been attach out to another of my workplace. So whether it is gd or bad. I still dunno but what I know is God has got sth to tell me for this time that I am away from my usual work stuffs.

I just came back from Fraser's Hill and I had a lot of fun! However, I was sick for the 1st day all thks to the sweet dessert I had before playing soccer on the evening I left. But thk God I manage to recover and enjoy the fun and fellowship for the rest of the trip! Up next is Cameron Highlands I suppose. Haha. :p

What's really up next is Ophir. Yup... My third attempt again. But don't be mistaken, I am proud to say that I made it successfully on my first attempt 3 years ago. Hehe. ( Think I am getting some envious stare from some people who are reading ) :o Been training and running. Not really too difficult for me. The challenge is to lead the team. Yeah... I am the leader. Ha.

Men's seminar on Sunday was wonderful. From my point of view, perhaps not all might think that it's the best, but to me it was. We might not have the best of the environment or equipments etc. But I guess the most impt factor was God's presence with us and how each heart was ready to recieve what God was telling us on that aft.

I've learnt. If u don't have the heart to listen, whatever is preached will not go deep into your spritual man. Only when u're ready to recieve the blessing or to hear the word of God, only then will u increase in wisdom and knowledge.

Looking to committment once again to some areas of my life. I believe that everything will have to begin from this generation. Not just me but many of the youths out there too. God is calling us to rise up for Him.

"Don't ask how. Tell God - Use me Lord."

To all youths who might be reading my blog. Yeah. It's you. God is calling you to give your heart to Him totally, today. =)

2 surprises from God!

2006-06-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

Surprise!!!

I had two surprises from God today. It just happen and it was an instantaneous prayer answered! I went to TTSH for a check up on my lower back today. I went early and took a queue number. It was 1420 hrs when I took a seat. (Don't ask me why I am so accurate, I just happen to look at the queue ticket and the time was stated at the right bottom corner)

I waited and waited... waited and waited... waited and waited. Time now is 1600 hrs! I had waited for 1hr and 40mins! I went in finally and was inside for only 10mins! The specialist told me I had to do a MRI scan and told me it will take a week to two for and appointment. And therafter, it will take another three weeks after the scan before he meets me again.

I went out of the room feeling like "the... I waited for so long and... Hmm." I went to pay and book a appointment for the MRI scan. The receptionist refered me to the NNI (I forgotten what it stands for) dept to make an appointment there. (Blur right? I was also quite blur... One appointment and I have to walk around the whole level. That's hospital for me!) I register and took a seat. I was still feeling "the..." from all the long waiting and only got 10mins inside the consultant room! I was so hungry too.

My last meal was like 10am and I didn't dare make a move to anywhere just in case my queue number was called. All of sudden, I saw this lady walking out from nowhere with a cross on her neck and called my name. "Justin, u don't mind doing your MRI scan today?" I was like... "okie, I don't mind. Thks. I didn't know it can be that quick," I answered. I was so thankful in my heart! Finally all the waiting doesn't seem to be that redundant at all!

While waiting for the MRI scan, she called me and pass me my appointment card. Date shown for the next appointment: 060706. That is just next Thurs! I ask her why it was so quick, I thought the specialist only wanted to see me after 3weeks? But she said she manage to get a slot for me on that day. That explains it all. A process that requires near to a month has change to just a week of wait in a mere 4hrs that I spent there!

I thank God for this lady. She seems to be an angel that God send! Thank God! So if you have a smooth sailing day, thank God for that, if you have a lousy day, thank God for that too! In all circumstances, give God all the gratitude and He might just spring a few surprises in your day! =)